How can this be happening again.
It strikes again!
As well,I wish,Not again.
It wasn't Called PMS still
and i know its not.
Again,i tried to endure.
My ears forcefully overheard.
I swear so much that there's no more words i could think of.
My Heart was screaming.
My voices wasn't heard.
I am pretty sure there's brick walls that turned people deaf.
How can this be i wondered.
I choose to speak softly...?
Or just my voices were irritating that its choose to turn me off..?
I'm not that perfect either.
But I promote myself to be better and be more understanding.
Not Heartless.
I wasn't so heartless afterall.
Or else I would have left (150211)
Those little things i did,scrambling panicking planning
it wasn't even worth a sweat.
Practically emotionally ________.
At first,should have told,
why wasn't i even thinking?
Unwillingness.Unwanting
It was just UNWILLINGNESS.
Busy is just part of the excuses.
Basically what i heard next
wasn't even just Willingness,
It was rather wanting. with lots of love and sincerely.
I may not write this straight to the point,
but it does to me.
only if you felt my talk is empty,nonsensical
and Thinking 'what the hell is she trying to say when i think i done nothing wrong and its just something wrong with her attitude'
Might as well you just go dig your brain and have a brainwash.
I don't think even that works for your brain.
I have enough of endurance and patience.
Few more months,I wouldn't have to go through this unbearable pain
after those day of surgery,I would at last get over the pain,
Dwi Herisa you promised to hold back and wait and persevere and endure.
I have to.
YOU better bear the consequences.
I will be sure that I'll forget You.
I had & am two sided face and you've marked the scar
You've gone over the limits so be it,I have a grudge on you inside.
Officially ( i havent said this to anyone in a long time after so LONG years)
I HATE YOU.
The past is still a past to me.It still fresh and it hurts.
Cause YoU,You're not the type who Look forward to the future.forgets the past.
And only know what's present.
So you shouldn't even have faced much problems in life as much as others.
So Stop Whining and complaining.
KARMA gonna hit you back.