What an awesome day yesterday. Finally from cancelling 4C BBQ and all the fuss about the fund etc,We finally had a so called 'reunion' lunch date. Though not everyone came well at least the usual Supportive reasonable people who's always been part of 4C came. Well i don't know how much gratitude i should show them. Its been always been the 12-15 of us who's always planning and supporting each other plans / outings. Sometimes i just feel that we're the only ones in the class. Well pretty much i'm saying the rest are invisible,oh no i'm sorry to the rest.i just really felt like it.Because everyone only know how to talk and not do it.I fucking hate it when you guys say you miss each other and want a reunion bbq / outing or whatever crap shit and then when we plan everything out,you guys are not attending or even not wanting to support the class fund.After seeing the pictures w/o you guys,then you guys start blabbering that we're bias or never ask you to.Seriously guys.Do you know how demoralizing it was when i keep seeing comments that brings us down.right whatever still.
On the happy mode,I really love yesterday! They are the most amazing classmates i ever had. I really Love my Beeessssss. Its been 4 years we've been spending our ups and down together especially the fights.Though we've been separated 2 years back,in our hearts we still know that we're still bonded with each other.And up till today i guess and i assume we're still close right. I really love the spirit and support and love from the Bees. Aww i miss those days. okay thats really not the point here.this post seems like i hated 4C. I'm sorry i don't mean that way. I still love 4C days though!it was a really tough fight within those days before N's especially with the fights,communication[fail] and of course the lectures.
I've been thinking if i should stop working. Its been a month plus since i've been working and i know its time for me to enjoy my holidays before results.But i really very comfortable with my job right now. tho my body ache here and there. But i really like the environment working there. The people there make me laugh my ass out everyday.I don't really care about the $ if i quit now.but i don't know. I feel like my head gonna explode in no time soon making decisions.But I'm really tired.Really Really tired.
Hmm,I've been thinking lately about where i should go IF i would ever fail my N's. The date is getting nearer.Tho i may not seem nervous about the results,only Allah knows how much i'm scared,afraid and fearing upon the thoughts of failing.Damn.This feeling.
Before i start with another grandmother story,i should stop here.