DwiEsha !

I resent your Dignity

2011-12-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

Mom, why am I so ugly?
The kids keep making fun of me
Can’t I get some plastic surgery done over the break?
If not, I’m really going to leave this house
I’m just gonna go die, for real
Mom, for real

Mom, I hate mirrors the most in the whole world
I’m sick of being called a loser
My eyes are slit across, my nose is crooked
My face is so big and how about my skin?

On top of that, like you, I’m so short
I’m not even 160 cm – my friends get surgery for that
But our household is a bit poor
I’m not that smart either – I’m just average

Mom, stop saying that the inside is what counts
It’s so annoying, I’m sick of it – did you not hear what I’ve been saying?
Society these days criticize you if you’re ugly
The world revolves around beauty – especially this country

So I looked it up – I want to go to this hospital in Kangnam
Celebrities and singers go there a lot
Fix me, draw a double eyelid on me too
Please, make me the same as everyone else

* It’s okay to be ugly
Don’t cry, don’t laugh
It’s okay to be ugly
Don’t cry, don’t kill yourself

** It’s okay to be ugly, don’t die
It’s okay to be ugly, you won’t die
It’s okay to be ugly, don’t cry
It’s okay to be ugly so smile
(It’s okay to be ugly so smile)

(Age and school?) 30 years old and a pretty famous school
(Work?) It’s famous, if I tell you, you’d know
(Money?) She makes more than the average man
But there’s a complex that made this elite woman come here

I thought appearance was not that important
I thought your charm is more important so I tried hard for that
I was confident in front of my pretty friends
But in the back, I kept getting stressed

I lived by power, education and pride
I take the pain medication that is my monthly salary
Men are stupid – everyone is fixed
They forgive the ugly but considers it a sin if you don’t get surgery

It’s okay now, I will go to sleep
When I open my eyes, in the mirror, I will look pretty
(When I have a daughter later, I won’t tell her that she’s the prettiest)
As I think those thoughts, I close my eyes, with tears

The Singles Pringles hommmmmmmmm

2011-12-11T10:24:00.005+08:00

What an awesome day yesterday. Finally from cancelling 4C BBQ and all the fuss about the fund etc,We finally had a so called 'reunion' lunch date. Though not everyone came well at least the usual Supportive reasonable people who's always been part of 4C came. Well i don't know how much gratitude i should show them. Its been always been the 12-15 of us who's always planning and supporting each other plans / outings. Sometimes i just feel that we're the only ones in the class. Well pretty much i'm saying the rest are invisible,oh no i'm sorry to the rest.i just really felt like it.Because everyone only know how to talk and not do it.I fucking hate it when you guys say you miss each other and want a reunion bbq / outing or whatever crap shit and then when we plan everything out,you guys are not attending or even not wanting to support the class fund.After seeing the pictures w/o you guys,then you guys start blabbering that we're bias or never ask you to.Seriously guys.Do you know how demoralizing it was when i keep seeing comments that brings us down.right whatever still.

On the happy mode,I really love yesterday! They are the most amazing classmates i ever had. I really Love my Beeessssss. Its been 4 years we've been spending our ups and down together especially the fights.Though we've been separated 2 years back,in our hearts we still know that we're still bonded with each other.And up till today i guess and i assume we're still close right. I really love the spirit and support and love from the Bees. Aww i miss those days. okay thats really not the point here.this post seems like i hated 4C. I'm sorry i don't mean that way. I still love 4C days though!it was a really tough fight within those days before N's especially with the fights,communication[fail] and of course the lectures.

I've been thinking if i should stop working. Its been a month plus since i've been working and i know its time for me to enjoy my holidays before results.But i really very comfortable with my job right now. tho my body ache here and there. But i really like the environment working there. The people there make me laugh my ass out everyday.I don't really care about the $ if i quit now.but i don't know. I feel like my head gonna explode in no time soon making decisions.But I'm really tired.Really Really tired.

Hmm,I've been thinking lately about where i should go IF i would ever fail my N's. The date is getting nearer.Tho i may not seem nervous about the results,only Allah knows how much i'm scared,afraid and fearing upon the thoughts of failing.Damn.This feeling.

Before i start with another grandmother story,i should stop here.

Because we're friends :)

2011-12-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

I will never ever admit that i am scared of commitment but today i did. I said it myself. I'm really afraid.

I've always complain about wanting to have a boyfriend,but I don't think i was all ready. I don't know if what i really need was a good guy bestfriend or someone who i could use and throw him when i don't need him.But its really hard to find one.Well I'm not saying there isn't.

Of course there is.But sometime when you develop feelings for each other,that's when things can go wrong.

Its really difficult for me to go over the line.We've been sharing gazillion love life stories and i'm now so afraid to tell you about everything i am going through.

Well wtf am i blabbering about?

I know how to not go too over board with infatuation.Well you're just my eye candy thats all :)

On the other hand,fcuk no. Is history gonna repeat itself?Its been years and i am still not over you.I kept thinking that he's you.Lol right? I miss you damn freaking much.Even if it was just a day,coincidentally bumping into each other,I promise you that i would be the most happiest girl in the world.You left the biggest memory and left with a few steps within a second.I really do miss you.I miss your text.I miss your calls.I miss your voice.I miss looking at you.I miss being shy by your present.I miss falling asleep while waiting for your text.I just miss everything and every moment.

Woah WTF! I just wrote about 3 diff person in a post.

Just another rant

2011-11-25T00:23:00.002+08:00

I think this post would rather sound stupid.seriously. Firstly I've been working my ass out.Its really tiring and i feel like dying.

Secondly there's someone who reminded me of someone who used to be really my everything.I mean not the face,but the way he talks and his personality. And because of that i tend to think that its really him I'm talking to.Well i know i am going insane but yeah thats a fact.

Thirdly Graduation Lunch :) Well of course i had an awesome time with loved ones.And like obviously everyone knows i really that only picture with - .

Well i can't lie.I still do have feelings for you.Thanks for making my day better! ^^ I would really love to hear the explanation from your mouth. But Apart from that I'm glad that there's no more awkward moment.And as you promise,We'll stay as close friends. Well,I wasn't asking for a relationship in the first place.And I promise that we'll just stay as friends.Thats what i wanted initially.I miss our lepak-ing sessions and following you guys on your dates and asking chicks numbers for you guys.Well i miss doing those.I really wish we could go back like last time. Thank you for giving US another chance to become best budds. At least I'll try ^^ See you soon ... bro ^^ Damn i miss calling you that bro :))

That would be our last picture together i supposed

2011-11-25T00:15:00.002+08:00

My Youth just won't leave me alone

2011-09-12T19:24:00.000+08:00

As long as it's possible, I fly
My youth just won't leave me alone
(I know) I know who I am
The word 'failure' has been deleted from my vocabulary long ago
Flow, rhyme, and soul are the wings that make me fly
My heart still flutters with life, and I'm still hungry for more
The beat of blunt of rhythms still excites me
My body stretches out for more, this is where I'm meant to be
It's okay if there's a gap between the ground because I'm always above clouds
Laugh and sneer all you want now
Because that sneering is going to turn into tears a few years from now
At 19 years old, I moved my philosophy onto paper
And preached it nationwide like I'm a missionary of religion
(I'm still fly) I walk the sky
I've kept quiet all these years, but not for long
(Watch your back) You better all move away because nothing's impossible for me now
My flight only departs, it never lands

-

Early on, I put up a wall against my studies
And jumped into this amidst the opposition of others
It's an ensemble of beats, nurture, and lyrics
My joy was in my music, so I wrote and wrote persistently
I do get tired, but I never stop
My storage for creativity is never empty
There was not one person that supported me
I had to lash out at myself, I had to become my own enemy
I never once let myself fall prey to corruption, rebellion, and delinquency
My heart was in this from the start, always deliberating over the best of rhymes
I'm not going to wander around the streets of Hongdae to sell my music
My target is the hip hop fans of Korea, the public, and Asia
Eat shit, I don't care whether you bring me down or talk behind my back
I'm not going to waste my time refuting against your pathetic attempts
I can't leave anything unfinished, which is why I'm here today
It can't get any rougher, I reach a new potential every day
(I keep doing my own thing) I'm going to start anew now
So that the blood and sweat I poured over the years aren't distorted

Mentality of a 16 year old

2011-09-12T19:20:00.002+08:00

finally N's are here! Oh yeah. Its gonna be less than a month till all my major paper! Took Eng,Mt and SS during the September holidays! Fcuk no MT WAS F* hard!Seriously! I mean like it was the hardest paper i ever took. No kiddin.

And also like finally someone is in a relationship ^^ Muahahahah! Oh you just overtook me. Not really actually! Since you requested,We shall go on double date soon...not so soon,Until I found the right one. But I could say,This relationship was like your ideal relationship. I couldn't be wrong about it. How nice I've been put behind a black curtain. All Along i knew Him and his friends[even had a crush on one of them] and for that period i didn't knew you guys were like already keeping in touch. Seriously Guys! Ahhh And your birthday coming but sadly i can't celebrate it. Its like a few days before my papers! :( so sad but its okay i've planned something after my N's! Muahahah! ^^ It'll be formal and elegant! ^^ Let's be in a 10cm heels for ones. at least for you ,shorty!

Apart from that things have started to cool down. I mean like I don't get that frustration of seeing you not talking to me etc. Slowly letting it go. But hell yeah its been a good progress i guess. TEEHEE!

It gonna be a month more till could start my plan at least after N's. hopefully i could achive it. So no one could look down. I'm still above the clouds.

If it gotta be me,if i don't like the way it is then you just better stfu before shits come to your face. oh hell yes i am talking about you Ungrateful. Tho its a family thing but sometimes if one go too overboard the other couldn't just shut up and sit still till whats worst could happened.I already hate the way you live your life. Hell yes i could still remember that accusation you made to me. You wouldn't know how evil i could get.Well i just swallowed it in just like how you pick-up the money thats being thrown in your face.There's just too much of your doings that could fit the bunch of toilet paper rolls. Seriously. I don't know of how much you know that the old man and woman whom you come to when you're in need and throw them when you lead a happy party family life are suffering so much and aggravate with your behavior/doings/etc. Seriously i love them to death and if you ever make them so sick,you'll never know what worst could happen.At least even if my mouth is like venomous snake , I don't hide my true colors unlike you and i act upon my own actions.I show and speak of what i don't like and what seems wrong.If you only know how to talk big,talk behind people's back and talk sarcasm,then you better know how to reproduce[no i mean be independent on your own financial status] yourself so that you could act like one great high-class lady.Rather than you bark like a dog.You want fame?cheh!

I Just Dont Get it

2011-08-11T12:30:00.007+08:00

You know I’ve always been the one making the first move. And yeah obviously i regretted every steps i took. Because i just couldn’t picture how embarrassing it was for a girl to confess to guy especially when he has eyes for someone else. I really can’t imagine i did that not only once but thrice or more i think. Apparently after the last time i did,I kind of lost confidence i might say tho everyone thought i was so brave and they’re proud of me.Indirect first confess was with bestfriend’s cousin.LOL IKR.Well He’s a nice guy,No doubt,He’s like one out of the best!pretty much he’s like a brother since he’s a year older.then the next confess was like few years back,I had a crush on my senior.Yeah we talked and text-ed each other for quite sometime and he some sort of ~~‘ditch’~~me? And then i don’t know what happened. Then for the second time was also with a Senior,I seriously don’t want to talk about him but he’s the worst out of the worst.He’s this ~~DUMBFUCK~~ guy.And the most recent and the last[i think] LoL i kind of got a great impact from this since He’s in the same year as i do and we’re friends.Idk but how can you not fall in love with someone who like fcuking so much care for you like no other guys did.When the first time we hang out [when i was still clinging onto that~~DUMBFUCK~~ guy] its like “owww his cool,he’s funny” etc and like no butterflies in the stomach until one day When like he suddenly change the way he treats you [maybe i took it the wrong way = He’s just starting to feel comfortable].He did those things that i never expected.And you know like in those dramatic movies when there’s lightning going across from eye to eye,yeah its just like it and BAM whenever he’s near,i couldn’t stop myself from being super nervous.And then as per usual,i couldnt keep my mouth shut and people starts to notice and rumors spreading,The GOOD thing is that he acts like he doesn’t know anything tho i know that he knew and i finally gather every liter of my courage to speak up to him.And i think He’s the one out of the guy on the list that had been this frank. Well he said that He’s sorry because He couldn’t return back the feeling and so on.And Like he’s been waiting for this Babe for like 2 years [well i understand how it feels to wait] and he’s like saying we could just stick to being close friends despite my feelings for him. Apparently, Close Friends = Complete Stranger.Idk whats the problem but he just wouldn’t talk to me after that day that…..whatever. ~~Can i rewind the time back? :(~~ I really want to know why he's so scared of me being super cheerful! =_= Ahhh I Miss you L. I mean not as a Lover But as Friend.remember how all of us like to tease each other and joke around.I miss those hang outs. Now you wouldn't even want to come along knowing that i would be there. What isit that he fcuking told you?Idk why he's even protecting me and telling me that liking you would affect him. WTH! i just dont get it!

Just so In Love with a Rapper

2011-08-03T20:37:00.000+08:00

Kyung

Whenever I see you, the sun shines down on my dark feelings and makes me look lively again
I'm not able to say what I want to today as I let you go again
I can't sleep at the thought of my mistake, I'm a fool for thinking I'd be okay
Today, no, even tomorrow, I won't be able to live without you

I'm comfortable with being just friends with you
But in reality, a corner of my room is littered with pictures of you
They remind me of our precious days together
and tell me to hold you back, I haven't forgotten you yet
The only one real love in my heart in this entire world is you
I'm sorry, could you please come back to me?
I want to hug you close to my heart again

Elin

That you missed me, and that you love me
That was all I wanted to hear
If you come back to me, if you will hold me again
All I need is for you to love me more than the pain I went through

Zico

We fell in love without suspecting anything
'We're so happy, is it even possible for us to break up?'
I remember I'd often ask myself that
Why are we now nothing but a past memory?
We were so scared of getting to know each other
Wasted our affections on unnecessary will
I should've looked ahead of our love, even by just a few centimeters
But like a kid, I didn't distance myself from my stubbornness
It's no one's fault, we were both at wrong
We should've tried to fix things, 'I didn't like that'
We should've been honest with each other
It's too late to regret things now, maybe being alone now
is an advantage for me in break ups
Lingering attachments only make it harder for her
so I'm just going to resign myself to reality

Elin

That you missed me, and that you love me
That was all I wanted to hear
If you come back to me, if you will hold me again
All I need is for you to love me more than the pain I went through

If you tell me that you love me
let's start over again right now

That you were happy with me, and that you missed me
That was all I wanted to hear
I'm able to withstand pain because I have you
So come back to me if you love me

2011-03-26T20:13:00.003+08:00

I'm Bloggin again. :)

My throat is in pain.

Let's start off with School.The one week of school holiday was Short! -_- I wish for it to get extended.My school bag is gettin heavier TT.TT I hate it . Havin backache. TT.TT Had Speech Day on Friday. and So i took part in the STomp it performance. Lol. I know right but it was all good.Had been real busy this week. really Really busy. And i am getting sick so often because i don't get enough rest and sleep.I need some vitamin.Oh No! And My face would get swollen so often TT.TT and the teachers in school keep complementing me that i am losing weight and looking different.Miss Norita's comment was the most JJANG. She,"You too stress already for N's isit?" I was like -_____- .LOL! seriously but Mdm Wang was the first who notice me.What's new? she always tries provoked me to lose weight.But seriously i didn't even go on diet or whatsoever.perhaps because i'm just too busy and i skip meals often.

okay! Shall Move on cause I'm still fat no matter what. :D

My pimples is so weird.seriously.And i'm havin scars on my face TT.TT and my eye bags had became worst!It got wrinkled! :( I Really need to take care of myself right. mmmmmm.....What else?

My Love life?Hmmm. I think I've finally got over him just only that bits and pieces of him are still wandering around.But Yeah I'll be over it soon.I'm havin a complicated Love Life now. seriously.I Don't know what else to do to get out of it.

Its like I know how it feels to get hurt and have someone who gives you high hopes and waited for someone cause I've done that like a couple of times But right nowI'm doing it. I'm telling this person that he should give me up.And Guess he cut all ties with me when i havent even told him the whole reasons.Hmm.Nice.I have my own reasons.I don't want to hurt him,but YES i do have feelings for him to.During that time,he kept me wondering and I'm just waiting for him to tell me but in the end,nothing.but yeah i got his hints.But he should been even more braver.But the thing that i really don't get it is that .... ugh.nevermind forget it.But i really do miss the old times.Tho I'm not really into finding relationships but I want you as much as i want this friendship to last.I don't know if He would be reading this but To Him,Seriously i miss you.I just wish that on that day you would have stayed and hear what i have to say.I just wish that you could just give me a text or beep me up.I don't know how else to get hold of you when you suddenly MIA.Tho i Know deep down you didn't want me to know that there's someone who's trying to fight for you but I hear your heart and still i can feel your sincerity.So Please,Just talk to me and don't run away.

Just erase me please

2011-03-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

It's not love
This isn't love
It's just your obsession
Wherever
Whatever I do
It's frightening
The you who watches me

I follow in your shadow
I make a phone call
I become thrilled at the sound of your shaking breath
My heart runs after your increasingly quick steps
I think I'll go crazy
The long night gets darker
Under the dead streetlamp in front of your house
I'm watching you through the crack in your window
Until the night ends
Come on and find me
You keep playing a suffocating game of hide-and-seek with me
You, you, you
You're inseparable from me

*Have you gone crazy?
Why are you like this?
Please just leave me alone now
Seeing you is suffocating
Please disappear from my sight

You can never break away from me
You have no one to love but me
Try to escape
Wherever you are
I can see you
You know deeply
You can never break away from me
You have no one to love but me
Look at me now
I don't wanna cry no more, more

Get lost
Just back off
I really can't breathe
Wherever I go
Wherever I am
It's frightening
The you who follows me

A hundred times
Tens of thousands of times
I've called you
But why, why is there no answer?
Did you forget?
It's already been a thousand days since we met
I prepared a gift you'd like
I sit on the street you frequently travel
I'm waiting for you
I know my love
Don't call it obsession, you don't know love
Don't say I've gone crazy
You don't know my heart
You can never be separated from me

*REPEAT

You know you want me too
You know you love me
Don't run away from me
Cut the crap~
Get ahold of yourself and stop it
Let go of me now

This ain't right
This isn't love
It's just hurts me, don't be like this
I loved you
But I don't now
Erase me from your memory

I don't wanna cry no more, more

2011-03-05T02:45:00.001+08:00

I must get over you

2011-03-05T02:03:00.002+08:00

I smiled i laughed i tried to stay that way.

I was forcing it too much.

Because i had to.. infront of you.

How could i even afford to show a sad emotion infront of you.

I'm sorry i had to break down infront of you that day.i know i shouldn't.

I'm such a fool.I know that.

Just too much drama happened this week.

I'm starting to hate you but i can't get over you just yet.

YOU still lingers in my thoughts.

Its so hard to let you understand.

everythings for you is a joke.

I think i was out of my mind to even consider someone like you.

I'm disgusted.

Friends tell me you're driving me crazy.

The worst i ever had

And that i must get over you.

Of course they should be pleasant to finally hear me say

"He's just not worth waiting for"

After seeing me in such a mess.

I neglect my surroundings,

Its time for me to get back to where i used to be,

to who i am,

to who i am happy with,

Just need to Get back my life.

The Happy-go-lucky one.

I need to get out of this mess.

2011-02-26T13:35:00.003+08:00

Already in the time spent with you I can’t find the old me.I’ve come too far To be honest I do feel afraid but I can’t stop this feeling.Right now, this feeling to me is more dear than anything.I'm putting on hopes.and i don't want reality to repeats itself.why must of all others its has to be you?

Sometimes I just felt this way.

2011-02-26T13:13:00.000+08:00

I’m afraid to spend even a moment apart from you
Every night, it gets harder and harder to send you away
I wanna rock with you till there’s no end
Your everything is so beautiful

Already in the time spent with you I can’t find the old me
I know I can’t control
I’ve come too far
To be honest I do feel afraid but

I can’t stop this feeling
It’s just a feeling, my heart almost bursting with thrill
It’s just a feeling, this sense of having the whole world
It’s just a feeling, I’m not afraid of any kind of pain
This must be feeling of love

You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You make me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Now let me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

My heart, as ever, trembles at your scent/perfume
Even when you’re not around, I call your name like a habit
I wanna make love to you... baby, say my name
one more time, and one more time… let’s do it again

Within your warm embrace, I can no longer hold back
I know I can’t control
I’ve come too far
Yesterday… Today… I can’t make it one day,
not one moment without you

It’s just a feeling, my heart almost bursting with thrill
It’s just a feeling, this sense of having the whole world
It’s just a feeling, I’m not afraid of any kind of pain
This must be feeling of love

You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You make me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Now let me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Don’t say anything
Just come closer to me
Right now, this feeling to me is more dear than anything, oh~

It’s just a feeling, my heart almost bursting with thrill
It’s just a feeling, this sense of having the whole world
It’s just a feeling, I’m not afraid of any kind of pain
This must be feeling of love

You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You make me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
You got me singing yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Now let me say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

I can no longer endure this

2011-02-26T12:16:00.003+08:00

Dear __________,

I've been keeping this feeling for a year plus and i waited yet no one knew about it till this year that some started to notice how i am treating you because i couldn't take it anymore.I didn't even get to show much last year and just kept quiet and showing hates to you.You should know,I don't even mean it.But I'm too scared to show my feelings.I fear of getting hurt once again.I don't know what made me get so attracted to you and i don't know why i fell for you.I know that you knew.And things, i know started to get awkward.I can sense that.I feel like giving you up because i know things won't work up like how i want it to be but just that something telling me to hold on to you.I am starting to get jealous and it affect my Mood swing badly.I am trying not to cross the line,but right now i feel like killing myself for being so stupid.The stupidity of being jealous.And i know jealous is not even and option for me.Who am i to feel that way?I am just your crush.Duh!and Today i felt so suckish.I shouldn't have even saw those.Fcuk it.I actually did put on hopes which i know i shouldn't.Why am i so fcuking stupid,right?I don't know why i did that for.I don't know why of all others i had feelings for you.there should be something wrong somewhere.seriously.I told myself to stay away from you but how am i suppose to when you're so fcuking near?How could i even resist it?One point of time i thought God might be helping us.If One day,you were to read this(idk if i would still be waiting or not) if yes then you should tell me that you know how i felt and get straight to the point to your feelings.If there's nothing to brag about then you should just tell me to stop putting on hopes.Its better that way.
And if you didnt knew,Since last year even tho i don't update this blog often BUT each time i update it WAS ALWAYS about you okay maybe not in all post.You can see those 'up & downs' of how i felt.and the Song Lyrics i put.....i know its way too much.I feel even like a fool now to cry over you at some point out of the 'love'feelings for you.Now i feel like laughing my ass out for being so stupid.But right now,I just want you to tell me.Idc if it hurts rather than..... nevermind. \sighs/

THIS ENTRY IS SO STUPID!I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT KIND OF ENGLISH I AM USING.

I can no longer endure this

2011-02-26T12:16:00.002+08:00

Dear __________,

I've been keeping this feeling for a year plus and i waited yet no one knew about it till this year that some started to notice how i am treating you because i couldn't take it anymore.I didn't even get to show much last year and just kept quiet and showing hates to you.You should know,I don't even mean it.But I'm too scared to show my feelings.I fear of getting hurt once again.I don't know what made me get so attracted to you and i don't know why i fell for you.I know that you knew.And things, i know started to get awkward.I can sense that.I feel like giving you up because i know things won't work up like how i want it to be but just that something telling me to hold on to you.I am starting to get jealous and it affect my Mood swing badly.I am trying not to cross the line,but right now i feel like killing myself for being so stupid.The stupidity of being jealous.And i know jealous is not even and option for me.Who am i to feel that way?I am just your crush.Duh!and Today i felt so suckish.I shouldn't have even saw those.Fcuk it.I actually did put on hopes which i know i shouldn't.Why am i so fcuking stupid,right?I don't know why i did that for.I don't know why of all others i had feelings for you.there should be something wrong somewhere.seriously.I told myself to stay away from you but how am i suppose to when you're so fcuking near?How could i even resist it?One point of time i thought God might be helping us.If One day,you were to read this(idk if i would still be waiting or not) if yes then you should tell me that you know how i felt and get straight to the point to your feelings.If there's nothing to brag about then you should just tell me to stop putting on hopes.Its better that way.
And if you didnt knew,Since last year even tho i don't update this blog often BUT each time i update it WAS ALWAYS about you.You can see those 'up & downs' of how i felt.and the Song Lyrics i put.....i know its way too much.I feel even like a fool now to cry over you at some point out of the 'love'feelings for you.Now i feel like laughing my ass out for being so stupid.But right now,I just want you to tell me.Idc if it hurts rather than..... nevermind. \sighs/

THIS ENTRY IS SO STUPID!I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT KIND OF ENGLISH I AM USING.

Not again

2011-02-16T15:58:00.002+08:00

How can this be happening again.
It strikes again!
As well,I wish,Not again.
It wasn't Called PMS still
and i know its not.
Again,i tried to endure.
My ears forcefully overheard.
I swear so much that there's no more words i could think of.
My Heart was screaming.
My voices wasn't heard.
I am pretty sure there's brick walls that turned people deaf.
How can this be i wondered.
I choose to speak softly...?
Or just my voices were irritating that its choose to turn me off..?
I'm not that perfect either.
But I promote myself to be better and be more understanding.
Not Heartless.
I wasn't so heartless afterall.
Or else I would have left (150211)
Those little things i did,scrambling panicking planning
it wasn't even worth a sweat.
Practically emotionally ________.
At first,should have told,
why wasn't i even thinking?
Unwillingness.Unwanting
It was just UNWILLINGNESS.
Busy is just part of the excuses.
Basically what i heard next
wasn't even just Willingness,
It was rather wanting. with lots of love and sincerely.
I may not write this straight to the point,
but it does to me.
only if you felt my talk is empty,nonsensical
and Thinking 'what the hell is she trying to say when i think i done nothing wrong and its just something wrong with her attitude'
Might as well you just go dig your brain and have a brainwash.
I don't think even that works for your brain.
I have enough of endurance and patience.
Few more months,I wouldn't have to go through this unbearable pain
after those day of surgery,I would at last get over the pain,
Dwi Herisa you promised to hold back and wait and persevere and endure.
I have to.
YOU better bear the consequences.
I will be sure that I'll forget You.
I had & am two sided face and you've marked the scar
You've gone over the limits so be it,I have a grudge on you inside.
Officially ( i havent said this to anyone in a long time after so LONG years)
I HATE YOU.
The past is still a past to me.It still fresh and it hurts.
Cause YoU,You're not the type who Look forward to the future.forgets the past.
And only know what's present.
So you shouldn't even have faced much problems in life as much as others.
So Stop Whining and complaining.
KARMA gonna hit you back.

-_____________________-

2011-02-11T19:03:00.000+08:00

I like the way you talk
I like the way you move
I like the way you move
Yeah
You rock my world
And I rock your world...

Boy I like the way you talk talk
Tok tok sweetly in my ear and nature to the galaxy
Can you tell me love love
My baby boo (just wanna love you girl) , my love is true (hey baby you're my world)
Wherever you walk walk
For energetic nature to the galaxy in my arms,
I'll tell you love love
Ma baby boo (you're so beautiful) come on baby tell me
Tell all your heart

The first time you encounter seemed spellbound
Words can not describe the feeling of knowing everything he knows
I'm me, always there to hold the man right here
I can not even fool you, Pride
The one word I love you guys, are sufficient
Believe me, I talk about the end of last
I'll call your talk to make a song

Boy I like the way you talk talk
Tok tok sweetly in my ear and nature to the galaxy
Can you tell me love love
My baby boo (just wanna love you girl) , my love is true (hey baby you're my world)
Wherever you walk walk
For energetic nature to the galaxy in my arms,
I'll tell you love love
Ma baby boo (you're so beautiful) come on baby tell me
Tell all your heart

Dude I love words, so little to show all of my heart
At least the world of small word so entrancing less stuffy
Your beauty must go at least reduce
Instead of hundreds of articles and the end of my arms,
Lips, and my eyes of you, my love daehwaji
Now, I'll be always by your side as hand
Let's make our future world, the most beautiful
You're winning a lot at night natboda of all dreams I'm in
The whole thing is only you My heart is

Boy I like the way you talk talk
Tok tok sweetly in my ear and nature to the galaxy
Can you tell me love love
My baby boo (just wanna love you girl) , my love is true (hey baby you're my world)
Wherever you walk walk
For energetic nature to the galaxy in my arms,
I'll tell you love love
Ma baby boo (you're so beautiful) come on baby tell me
Tell all your heart

The more you'd feel
Words can not explain this feeling

Lonely and difficult time when
Give me my name out loud
Do not forget that next time
You and me forever to do

Boy I like the way you talk talk
Tok tok sweetly in my ear and nature to the galaxy
Can you tell me love love
My baby boo (just wanna love you girl) , my love is true (hey baby you're my world)
Wherever you walk walk
For energetic nature to the galaxy in my arms,
I'll tell you love love
Ma baby boo (you're so beautiful) come on baby tell me
Tell all your heart

I never wanted this

2011-02-07T19:30:00.002+08:00

I'm crying again because
I know i wasn't being truthful
I didn't even care about how i would have felt.
I tried.
I did tried.
I thought I've won.
Finally,I know I could get rid of you soon.
As Soon as possible would be better
Even better if you don't even existed.
If you really had something to tell me
Please do so.
Before It's too late.
Really,this time I'm not kidding.
You don't even know.
You words kills me.
Your actions deceived me.
Can't you see I'm hurting enough already?
I looked at you,
even if i wished you would have turned,
i don't really know if my heart would be fluttered
Again...
I don't even know
I don't even know if this was called 'LOVE'
Love..
What's Love?

I would be over you soon.

2011-02-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

For the past few days,I knew..
My instincts were right
and I know i have to let it go.
I should Let go of my Feelings
I shouldn't have followed my heart too much
I shouldn't have even trusted the words
I should have stop dreaming about it.
The more I hope
The more my feelings got worst
The more i felt depressed
The more I had insomnia
Its just bothering me
Your words are bitter
Even if you knew how i would have felt
I don't thing you would have even care.
I Wish those feelings never existed.
I Wish to have a brand new start tomorrow
I wish to not even think about you
I wish...
I know I can and I would.
I would hold on to my words.
I want to forget about everything
About You
about My Feelings
I can.

I trust and believe myself would forget about how i felt for you

2011-02-06T19:30:00.001+08:00

I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf ...
"no,no, no, no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are)x11

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mold , yeah!
The more I try the less is working yeah yeah yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams, "no,no,no,no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, No's, egos, fake shows
Like "woo", just go, and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile ...
That's my own ! (that is my own) "no,no,no,no..."

Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
yeah yeah yeah

I would hold on to you,if you had done this.

2011-02-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

(HS)
A friend of mine asked me today,
If he could go out with you
He told me he could cherish you better than I
Considering now that we are through
(JH)
That that that that that’s ok
Get get get get away
“It’s okay I guess since there’s not much left from our relationship
Stop apologizing, I’m not that hurt anyways
Just please be a better boyfriend to her”
(KK)
I couldn’t tell him that I still have sleepless nights because of you
Although I’d cheered my friend on and sent him off with a forced smile, oh girl!
(YS)
Oh can’t you see I’m still loving you
My heart’s not yet ready to let you go
(HS)
Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Say you can’t because your heart is still waiting for me, say no!
(DJ)
“She can’t drink much, hates the fume of cigarettes,
She hates being alone, so be with her always
(JH)
And make sure you always…always remember her birthday”
Not even sure why I had told him all this
(HS)
Knowing in hindsight I would be regretting this but still forced myself to pretend to be cool
(KK)
Knowing behind my friend’s back, I would be upset and be begging him to stop, oh girl!
(YS)
Oh can’t you see I’m still loving you
My heart’s not yet ready to let you go
(HS)
Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Say you can’t because your heart is still waiting for me
(Say) No No No (Say) You can’t (Say) because you’re waiting for me to come back
(Say) No No No (Say) You can’t (Say) because you’re waiting for me to come back
(KK)
I couldn’t tell him that I still have sleepless nights because of you
Although I’d cheered my friend on and sent him off with a forced smile, oh girl!
(YS)
Oh can’t you see I’m still loving you
My heart’s not yet ready to let you go
(HS)
Say no! no! no! no! no! Say no! no! no! no! no!
Say you can’t because your heart is still waiting for me, say no!
CR: MNET (SOURCE); dujunseob@B2STRISING

Today my birthday and i think this should be the perfect song

2011-02-01T21:20:00.004+08:00

Things I Want To Do If I Have A Lover

If i have a boy friend there'll be so many things I want to do
I've dream i have a boyfriend like that.

The first, to kiss him in the streets
Second,catching early train to Chooncheon with him.
The third , a picnic with him.
The fourth,the piggy back ride.
The fifth couple-ring is basic for our love.

boo boo boo

It'll be really sweet.

The thought of it makes my heart flutters

I'll try to do every one a day with you
I'm so happy to be with you.I'm so happy we both are together.
You're a treasure to me.

Baby baby baby baby baby boo~

If I have a girl friend, there'll also be many things ive always wanted to do
I've always envied another's girlfriend

The sixth, I'll go late night movies with you
The Seventh I'll go to the amusement parks with you,
The eighth, I'll hold a surprise event for you

boo boo boo

It'll be really sweet.

The thought of it makes my heart flutters

I'll try to do every one a day with you
I'm so happy to be with you.
I'm so happy we both are together.
You're a treasure to me.

Baby baby baby baby baby boo~

I've been alone on my birthday
I've had nothing to do on weekends
But I'm eagerly looking forward to such days

I'm so happy to be with you.
I'm so happy we both are together.
Wherever we are whatever we do

I really want us to be ONE

Everyday what i really try to do with you is to tell you
"I love you."
What I really want to hear from you, is such a word,
"I love you"

Thank you for coming to me.
I'm so happy to be with you.

Your my only love

Baby baby baby babyu areaby boo~
Baby baby baby baby baby boo~

Hello February!

2011-01-31T21:23:00.003+08:00

Oh My God! It Would be my sweet 16 soon in a few hours time.! Woots woots! But i am down with flu! TT.TT went back early from school just now. Huhu!

I wish to see and talk to you everyday

2011-01-30T16:57:00.000+08:00

[Seungri]
Monday on the first day I was doubting
That I’m able to see you on a beautiful day like this
Tuesday I could tell with one look
You had similar eyes to mines and had the same heart

That you’re my girl
My heart is telling you
That it’s thankful for appearing before me
Cause I

[Seungri & IU]
I know when I see you
I can feel the shock throughout my body
I know when we’re together
We shine brighter than anything else in the world
Cause I

[IU]
Someday someone came up to me
With a clumsy tone, they started a conversation
What is it that it’s so cool?
Your nose and lips are similar to mine, you’re my man

My heart tells me to tell you
If it’s you, I’ll be with you no matter where we are
cause I

[Seungri & IU]
I know when I see you
I can feel the shock throughout my body
I know when we’re together
We shine brighter than anything else in the world
cause I

[IU]
You’re existence is as important to me as water
I’m happy because it’s you

[Seungri]
I can be sure you’re my partner
Now I want to open my with you everyday
Ye Oh

[Seungri & IU]
I know when I miss you
My eyes will be wet as tears fall from my eyes baby
I know when we’re together
I’m not afraid of anything
Cause I

Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
[IU] I can feel the shock throughout my body
Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh
[Seungri] We shine brighter than anything else in the world
Cause I

I just feel like telling you but i just can't......TT.TT

2011-01-28T14:14:00.000+08:00

I love you, words from the bottom of my heart
I love you, words that I would like to say again a thousand times
Until now I haven’t give you anything.
So I want to give you more now
Words which I would like to tell only to you

Back then, I don’t know about love
Staying by the side of someone
I’m both unfamiliar and scared
In this kind of thing

Only now, I understand love
Those days which I always push you away
I said that it wasn’t love between us
Thanks for the trust you have given me

Looking back now, there are lots of memories
I really didn’t know that was actually love

I love you.
Words from the bottom of my heart

I love you, words from the bottom of my heart
I love you, words that I would like to say again a thousand times
Until now I haven’t give you anything.
So I want to give you more now
Words which I would like to tell only to you

From now onwards, I will defend our love
Even if it’s simple-minded
Even if I will look like a fool
Because I’m the guy who only see you

You must be tired of this incomplete love
Although it’s a bit late, will you give me a chance?

I love you, words from the bottom of my heart
I love you, words that I would like to say again a thousand times
Until now I haven’t give you anything.
So I want to give you more now
Words which I would like to tell only to you

I, who is tired every day,
Will be really glad to be able to meet you
And say these words that make you feel touched

I love you, words from the bottom of my heart
I love you, words that I would like to say again a thousand times
Until now I haven’t give you anything.
So I want to give you more now
Words which I would like to tell only to you

I love this BuBu of mine.I still agree if he wants to cover his body with tattoo

2011-01-27T18:16:00.000+08:00

infinite bars i'mmah monster truck killin u cars
black hole diminishin stars the kid pissin u off
i'm the missle the bomb explosives blowin hittin you hard
never witnessed something so great prolly think u seen god
i'll break ur wrist and ur arms hip ribs and ur jaws
with a flick of my fist bitch kid mission accomp
lished if u still live come back i'll finish you off
electrical current in the water and yall fish in a pond
so dead and so gone fruit make u like eve and her hus
band if my name was steve u couldnt be takin my job /
man i'mmah innovator inspirator instigator, see u later/
sip ur hatorade and make a drink its called yellow flavah/
the hottest product out and yall be my buyer
pass me out put me up all walls cause i be flier/
though i changed ur wheels before i'll never get tired
im spittin shit that so hot i should prolly go get fired/
molded into greatness and no i am not plato
i am popeyes spinach yall just couch potatoes
make chips out u and and maby putchu in a bag/
cause yall flow be garbage man lookin like trach/

i'm on the top ur bottom cause yall lookin like ass/
u must be a ciggarette cuz yall lookin like/
if u think ur dope then maybe i'll will smoke u
no chip on ur shoulder i will give u a broke tooth/
acting like a tree but we both know u got no roots
on the dance floor i am more funkier then old food.
yup, what i started doin just a try/
now i am no student art of movement till i die/
i got some different shit in me oozin up inside
ull be like man i wouldnt my losin to this guy

i be ps12 and yall nintendo the old/
i got so many bars its where i'm gettin my gold
yall just sucky poker playas destined to fold
all u boys to men this is the end of the road
jacob from twilight cause i go and be on beast mode
eatin mother fuckahs because i be on feast mode
raps a naked eskimo and u flow be the least cold
if u dont like that there its fuck you like i'm CEE-lo/
its not friday but i'm debo/
get off the planet there no room for my ego
i get it done and kick a punch this shit is just a minimum
i'm every super hero super villan all mixed in one/
man u know i mastered the craft kid u seen it/
ill take the apple off the back of ur mac and eat it/

you mistaken if u ever think jays soft
i'm from nordstorms about to rip ur retail off
in this game no ball invovled no west east play offs
jus cause i sing do not mean i'mma female dog
i'm that blue thing from xmen u tired than take a rest than
like to stick i rub together a pad and a felt pen create fire so u meltin raps is what i'm best in
gotchur head bobbin like all of u r yesmen
like fish on my line takin the bait i place
i should change my name to tom cause u can't take my space
just movin along the lines man base by base
until i hit home and make everyone say my name
i'mmah lyrical miracle please dont take offense when i spit at chu
its like a ritual cause i'mmah make u see my vision too
no vision one ur visions done like vision impaired listen son
i'm sharp off the top head lookin like the simpsons son
there are no janitors so my dome is a mess
like my moms name is blessin i was born for sucess
no room to evovle here man i got the tightest style
i'm my own hardest crictin i don need no simon cowell

my time is now

gon milk it like a cow

give yall black eyes like boom boom pow

i aint never gonna fail i've lost it now
better send me to jail i'm the problem child
make cheddah all day at stack the piles
i'm gonna prevail suckah spartan style
the king of the castle dumbledore
dont got no more steps left to stumble more
continue fight in this rumble yo/
till my heart can not pump no more
never had a kid made it look this easy
breezy like them cover girl beezies
voice that'll make them girls feel freaky
dance like them crews on abdc
so incredible give u the heebie geebies
nobody be sayin that he be greedy
all for the fam man see we beastin
give u night mares if u feelin sleepy

YOu know i really don't meant those words,I miss you..Really...

2011-01-26T18:52:00.001+08:00

I used to sleep by your side
Holding you through the night
And Sometimes we would argue and fight *thanks to May

When I leave for now
Waiting here for a while
Somehow still unsure that you're gone
Girl I don't know what I'm thinking
Promise is unmaking my self
To wash you out of my head, baby
But I never thought heart breaking
Any chance I'm taking right now
To shower down this pain

Rainy days rainy days
Now that you've gone far away
My Raindrops pouring down my eyes
You know I'll never be okay
Those fade away fade away
Don't you know I'm missin you
Here and slow it falls again
Every day and night
As I open my eyes

(Rain rain rain rain
Falling down my head) X2

Rap: Uh I call you on the phone
To said that I was sorry
Try to play cool
But really I was feeling sorry
Countless ringing on the tone
Kinda got me worry
Now I'm sittin here looking like I'm in a hurry
From where you let me go
The time is movin slow
We used to hit it off any when and now we had it all *thanks to emmaann
Yeah we had it all but you just said enough, huh
We used to stand under my umbrella ~ella ~ella [my favorite part]
That what they said how I don't give a damn how I don't give a hella
Funny how you tell 'em fly only make its bigger
Darling but they lay my starter running down my finger
And you said you always be mine
Caught me in the meanwhile
Cuz it to me a fool
Blame it all on me now
It's raining more than never
hour by the hour *thanks to adamiquesce
I miss it real bad * thanks to adamiquesce
all the things that we had

Rainy days rainy days
Now that you've gone far away
My Raindrops pouring down my eyes
You know I'll never be okay
Those fade away fade away
Don't you know I'm missin you
Here and slow it falls again
Every day and night
As I open my eyes
Never thought it to be this way
And I know I'll never be the same
Yeah I know
Life goes on
But still I'm tryna to figure it out
Being without you baby
You know it's killing me the same
Never see your face again
Livin without you
Girl how I'm supposed to lose you baby ehhhh~~~Uhh ohhh..
Rainy days rainy days
Now that you've gone far away
My Raindrops pouring down my eyes
You know I'll never be okay
Those fade away fade away
Don't you know I'm missin you
Here and slow it falls again
Every day and night
As I open my eyes
Rainy days rainy days
Now that you've gone far away
My Raindrops pouring down my eyes
You know I'll never be okay
Those fade away fade away
Don't you know I'm missin you
Here and slow it falls again
Every day and night
As I open my eyes
(Rain rain rain rain
Pouring down my head)X2

I am a cruel person

2011-01-25T23:22:00.003+08:00

I know,I've been such a bad ass person.I truly understand and know that.But of me being like this,there's still someone who could tolerate my annoyance,attitude.Within those days,I know how cruel and bad i was.I was such a B*tch.And i know i was immature.I took it like a kids play.And nothing seems so real and serious to me.Even if someone were to treat me like a dog,I don't think i would be aware of it until someone tells me.To define,I'm narrow minded.I can only sees and believe what's there.

Maybe,God had helped me get out of the path of finding who my true friends are.The one who doesn't always get hurt/talk much whenever i ill treat them,the one who would always ask me if I am okay even if i put on a plastic smile,the one who could notice me being alone,the one who could find me easily whenever i am stuck in a maze.The one who knows the reason behind my every smile and laughter.And the one who know how to appreciate me for who i am,for what i like,my interest,and obviously the one who would give me a warm heart to share it with.

"My god,please heal my friends heart will all the hardships that she is facing right now. I want her love to come to her peacefully without no other fucking bitch getting to her way. please hang on.i know everything will be just fine :D"

I knew it! You thought i was going to missed that post right?But i didn't.Dear,Thanks for always being there for me whenever.Although,I always avoid talking to you and being so demanding that we should stop this stupid things/friendship,THANKS FOR ALWAYS TRYING TO PROTECT AND BUILD OUR FRIENDSHIP EVEN STRONGER.I KNOW,THIS POST WOULD MEAN NOTHING MUCH COMPARED TO THE SACRIFICES AND TIME YOU MADE AND LEFT FOR ME,BUT I AM TRULY SINCERE ABOUT THIS.I am sorry for the times when i made you cry & times that makes you feel like killing me(haha)! Thank you my Dear.

p/s:I hope you understand why i am doing this and continue to wear our mask for this little time.Let's endure this.

When would we? I'm waiting TT.TT

2011-01-22T14:45:00.000+08:00

Just one of those things I feel like
Singing for ya different _____ I'm like
Shawty call me up
Shawty call me up

I'm still right here
Thought we had a little vibe or two
And I'm sure no ordinary mood
A little more as a fella, a little more as a thing
I'm already off to one
The way you carry yourself and two
Girl your body, expression three
I'm going through my number's to call
Hold on think I miss dialed your number

wait, wait, wait
I can't think straight
Oh you, you, you
I'm waiting for you
Oh no, no, no
I'm out of control
I know that I'm trippin'
You got me all twisted

Every time I think of you
How I wish for us to be together
Spinnin' in my head
It's driving me insane
Baby girl I'm missing you
What am I to do without your number
All I do is wait, just to see you again

So as you got me reminiscing(of being with you)
And every time I get a message (baby I wish it was you)
See I ain't the type who'd be waiting on a call
Friends tell me she's driving me crazy
Now that I'm alone (now that I'm alone)
Thinking if I should let it go (thinking if I should let it go)
'Cause when I'll be on the phone, the lady say (eh)
"The number you have reached is not in service"

wait, wait, wait
I can't think straight
Oh you, you, you
I'm waiting for you
Oh no, no, no
I'm loosing my head
I feel like a fool and I don't know what to do

Every time I think of you (think of you)
How I wish for us to be together
Spinnin' in my head
It's driving me insane
Baby girl I'm missing you
What am I to do without your number
All I do is wait, just to see you again

Maybe I'll be okay (so I'll forget about you)
Or maybe there's a chance for me to make you mine again
You'll always be a part of me even if I never see your eyes again
From now on everyday

-rap- She had me shook like an earthquake
First class to this way
She say I be casting magic like them boys from One Way
Checking on the Monday
You know I like that
Shawty looking like the tah, type that never fight back
Hold on, I'll be right back
Here's my phone, here's my number
Now you got me off track, shit I can't even remember
I'm dialing on my phone, ringing that's my heartbeat-beat-beat-beat-beat-beat
I wish that I could tell her
Sing it like a capella
I think her name was Isabella, was it Daniela?
I guess I never know
Before she ever called
So then blow up my ringtone, and we could have a talk

Every time I think of you (think of you)
How I wish for us to be together
Spinnin' in my head (spinnin in my head)
It's driving me insane (driving me insane)
Baby girl I'm missing you (Hey)
What am I to do without your number
All I do is wait, just to see you again (just want to see you again~)
Mm...All I need is your number...Yeahh
"It is a bad time to call, please hang up and try again"

Catch Me If You Can Remix (Decipher, J.Reyez, DFD, Flowsik, Chan, Johnny...

2010-12-22T15:35:00.000+08:00

Yoseob (Beast) & Drama (Dalmatian) - 첫눈그리고 첫 키스 (First Snow,...

2010-12-14T19:17:00.000+08:00

F.CUZ (포커즈) - 친구졸업 (Wanna Be Your Love)

2010-12-14T04:38:00.001+08:00

I Miss this 4 Dudes! seriously!I miss walking Beside Jiji with his manager.And with one sentence that came out from my mouth,he turned with this charismatic gaze and his smile that melts my heart.His Manager Was just listening to us talk.And just walking and feel the winds after their Dinner at East coast eating chilli crab! HAHAH! Oh me me now i am craving for chilli crab! Oh and i shouldnt be so precise about this story.HAHAHA!

p/s:Someone took a picture of our legs.My shoe and Ji's.

A 4am Blabbers

2010-12-14T04:23:00.002+08:00

Now I'm Envious of those couples.Yeah Stupid me.So Silly of me.Okay so now i totally got over Mr A and came Mr B.I'm not sure if i am trying to play hard to get but yeah i did reject Mr B a couple of times because i thought i wasn't ready to be in a relationship tho i complained a lot about wanting to have a boyfriend.I knew i had feelings for Mr B.He's kind,friendly and yeah just whatever it takes to what I'm looking for.And what's more he got looks but yet as not as good looking as Mr A.If Mr A Would be much more caring towards me,i would have waited.I'm sorry to Mr B for hurting him so much.But I've finally accepted to go out with Mr B but not yet accepted him to be my BF.Not just yet.Everything must go slowly and i have to think first about it again.But how simply Mr A steps back in and somehow i think Mr B found out as he wasn't talking to me anymore.Oh How Great.Just like a Drama with too much Episode.I'm unsure of my feelings towards Mr A tho.But i felt bad towards Mr B.This thing is starting to get Complicated.seriously! Dammit! I know i shouldn't be in this position right now.Thanks they aren't Malay if not i guess the world turns upside down.LOL!If Thats the case of me my head and mind being so fickle,I would just rather be in my DwiLand with my kpop,my bias,my 3 Lovers(kim Jinchul,Dong YoungBae & Choi MinHwan).

Its Okay

2010-12-07T01:35:00.007+08:00

why must i know this guy?♥ him though^_^ Keep laughing at the way he smokes.

Boo!
Hey Yo! Its been a days since i last update. LOL! Again i am being a lazy pig. *laughs* So Had been busy last week. Obviously because of my fandom life. Being a fangirl is not easy though you think we just scream and shout for our bias name but sure there's lots of other things to think of.And it gives me hella a headache!Used to be so calm,friendly and happening but sometimes when things don't go your way you just gets annoyed.Further more i was having a pretty bad PMS since i was having red flag.Things just got more worst.Like a sudden dramatically change of character and attitude. i can be so happy in the beginning and get mad or annoyed in the end. or I could be dramatic and secretive.

Seriously.I'm a straight forward type of person. If i really hate your attitude i say it out loud.Its either i be sarcastic or say my mind out. Just that. And hell yeah you would be lucky if i didnt say.Because its either i keep it to myself until i cant take it or i just throw those rubbish to you.

Friday was slightly Okay Though just that Saturday. Feels super Unlucky.Never even get to see Beast. Like hell yeah who doesnt get mad.Its like i wasted my Money on waiting for the 6 Oppa.Gosh! And since Friday when Miss A Came , I keep bumping into them.its like we're at the same place coincidentally. Gahh! at least There's rebellious Min! Gosh! Love her Character!Gosh! Lets not talk about Saturday.

Though,there are still some things that made me happy.That brings me laughter.That makes me Smile like a mad Kid.I'm not sure if its Love or just a Puppy Love.But somehow I'm really unsure of this feeling.He really do have what it takes(the fact that he's not a malay) but just something is bugging me much.Like i am thinking deeply twice why if i have to be with him and all.Being Just friends is just so fine to me.i like the idea of being just friends.We like and love the same thing.There's just so much things in common.Although our conversation may get awkward sometime,but those morning and midnight text are the ones that make me smile.He would tell me what he did even without me asking and would take care of my affairs and comfort me when i'm down.And he knows it well whenever i get mad or sad when i didnt even show it/tweet about it.People around me Keep asking me to go for it and dont let him wait or get rejected again but as i said i prefer being friends.Although i keep complaining i am sick and tired of being single,isn't this suppose to be what i want and Like now i am not ready yet.-_- Its not that i have yet gotten over Faris owhh i gotten over him like so LONG ago.Maybe its just me.I'm Being demanding at first and now being too selfish.My mind is so fickle right now. PFFFT!!

Its getting Late now
Till Then
God Bless
Peace

Beautiful

2010-11-16T23:01:00.003+08:00

First : BOO !

WHAT was that?!

HAHAHH! I am actually so bored right now so ya! I took some Gifs from Tumblr and put it here. LOL! Big Credits to Picture Ownage.
I really Love Yoseob's Cute and adorable face.! ^^

BEAST - 'Beautiful' OFFICIAL M/V

You're amazing just the way you are

2010-11-10T02:39:00.004+08:00

BB's Dog! HAHH! Cute isn't it?It looks rather like a teddy bear to me ^^
This is Choco!

Yo! It 2Am in the morning now. Hmmm..Feel like updating! HAHHA! The second week of holiday and i am feeling rather bored than going HOORAY! But surely its a HOORAY as long as i don't need to see Some Ms/Mdm in school.And it'll be like 2 months time that i'm gonna see them again. Sighs. Dwi,stay calm and everything gonna be over soon.Days and months are gonna fly fast just by a blink. yeah right! Seeing the person you hate,time will fly slow. whatever. cut the crap.

Yeah.first thing first,i need to do well in N so that i could go to Sec 5. But just seeing my momentum now it feels like i really got no hope.seriously. And some teachers just discourage us by their words that came out from their big mouth.It just get on nerves.Whats more calling you Stupid.oh well great isn't it.Isn't a teacher suppose to have manners before they teach the students manners?DUH! Yeah,as well as I'm saying this,i still have grudge on her.Yeah am becoming more like Chullie.Gonna burst any time soon.

But oh wells,on the other hand,I am staying more positive because someone was encouraging me to study hard and get a course that i want so that in the future i'll get to be what i want. oh wells. He's a smart and ambitious guy.I'll swear he's gonna get his goals as long as he won't forget me when he's famous one day.HHAHA! just kidding! Of course he won't forget me :P But he told me that he was going to help me in my studies if i need help.But his schedule is too tight.Am just afraid that helping me out will clash with his school and studies.he got dance practice to attend to,vocal lessons.I'm telling ya he's working really hard.I'll pray for his success! ^^ And we shall become a trainee together >.<

I can't give Daphne a definite answer for the ushering thing.Cause I'm afraid i am on stand by on the 19th just in case they need more people.Right now the Crew has a lot of problems with the management.And the 7 Boys are having a really tight schedule.I'm getting real dizzy with all the explanations already.Pfft.

My eyes are getting real heavy now! But gonna watch 2PM Idol Army again before i go to bed! HAHAH! ^^!

GoodNIght/Morning!
Till then
Stay safe
God Bless

No Hope

2010-11-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

Is this the reality you wanted?!

2010-11-01T21:30:00.002+08:00

HAHA! By the title,I think the kpop fans know who's catch phrase was that.I miss that blondehhh! Today, is the first week of school Holiday.We have 2 months till school re-opens.If I keep Movie marathon everyday like this,I WILL GROW FAT!BUT i am not as free as what you think,I have tons of things to do.Mid of November till December,Running+Shouting+Slacking would be my Job oh and also my phone would be so busy.I might have to find a proper work then.Although i want and i wish to be in the crew in a team with them doing Ent stuffs but i think i would be the one who would be so crazy.I'll imagine if the one who came was Taeyang and i would be touring SG with his manager,my team and all.WOULDN'T I GO WILD?! *laughs* Nvm the PARTY coming UP! I really Can't wait.

Anyways,I Had been watching SHINEE HELLO BABY since yesterday night and today,i have yet to finish all the episode..i went to bed at dawn just now and my eyes are now like the dark clouds. I am just so bored yeah! But whatever! Yoogeun is super adorable! Ok but Harang is more adorable. *laughs* Yoogeun and Harang could be friends when they grow up.

We gone through the same thing

2010-10-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

SNSD - My Mistake

I’m still at the same place
Still by your side

I'm tired of wandering

Today again I'm still spinning
Flowing and Flowing Day after Day

Thats how I'm here now
You knew. You knew of my hurting heart
I hurt more when you smile

for not making you love me more It’s my mistake
For making myself love you more It’s my mistake
for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to It’s my mistake

How much Longer must my tear fall

believing in that promise
The lies, telling me to wait

Even my deceived selfishness is now tired and worn

You knew. You knew of my hurting heart
I hurt more when you smile

for not making you love me more It’s my mistake
For making myself love you more It’s my mistake
for not making you love me as much as I wanted you to It’s my mistake

I knew I couldn’t have you
My indulgent heart is still growing
After Waiting by myself
Regretting by myself
It seems like Loving you was a mistake.

For knowing that i would forget the pain was my mistake

I must be looking like a fool

For not wanting to let it go although i knew i would get hurt
Even though it could be all my fault
That’s ok. As long as you’re there…

Always…
Please forgive me for being like this.
The me who loves you

Digital Bounce

2010-10-29T19:04:00.005+08:00

^^^^^^^^
The PERFECT BOYFRIEND is now attached.

Right now, I feel like laughing! or crying? KYAAAAAA~! > is now my fav. word. not GAHHH anymore cause someone started using it too. HMPH! Okay but still whatever it is This week had been rather rough.I've not been standing on a smooth platform this month. Hope November would be good huh.

But last week was the best i guess.They say I'm lucky but i think its just coincidence. Of all my chasing days,i think last week was the most COINCIDENCE or rather fated?! *laughs* Guess what! I have my own fans too you know! That was the most memorable incident i ever had. Where to get Japanese Students who were on excursion to Singapore get off the bus and Came running towards you and show you slips of paper with pen and ask for a picture with you?and there were like 40(in each bus,there were 3 busses)of them? i was damn shocked like obviously! and i was like "woahhhhohohoahahah!" and i keep bowing to them and said "ashiteru! ^^" BUT there was a story behind it also.Its all because of Yamada! I wanted to find them the next day at the hotel but they went back to Japan already :( but I waited for FT all to come back to hotel.

And ohh where to get an Idol who says you're Cute?! Not only one but a few.And some new fans that i just met said the same thing. *blushes* But Taehun really made me fall in love with him when i was suppose to go crazy for siwan,he was there giving me a heart sign.And so i did Aegyo infront of him and he smiled and nodded and reach out his hands and his lips went " kiyowo ^^" means cute. LOL!and Min Hwan did it too but just that He replied my Aegyo and we both call it "The Cat Fights aegyo" KYAAA~! Uber cute all of them!okay cut it!there's so much that happened but i shall stop or else it goes on and on.

Tomorrow meeting with my two little kiddos! Miss them so much although i just meet them last week but ya.Need to find a new place to slack.sick and tired of DG.Ohh and need to get my life(phone) back. KYAA~! I've been using two numbers so they're complaining about it.He complained about it too. Baby sitting Next week! *jumps up & down* HAHHA! at least i got some work to do rather than being a pig at home.and yeah i should start thinking about going for the audition or not.They talk easily but its hard to get in.Same as the Uhljjang(pretty face) nomination. I think i should just migrate to Korea better. or Maybe after i finish my studies here and spend like one month there.LOL!But Grandpa told me and kakak and Bibik that he would bring us there.next year perhaps! and I've got some friends from korea too and he's been pestering me to go there sooner.But they are all Uhljjang and a party freak!Everyone been treating me like a Baby.Think cause am always the cute Maknae(youngest in groups). *laughs* So BHB!and they're waiting for me to turn 16 then 18 comes next.

Ohh and I don't think i would be putting my love life here anymore.Kyaaaa~! Although am still single now but i can have a secret crush right.and he could be dropping by here *roll eye balls* *laughs* am talking crap now.Ohh and kakak had been asking me to talk to _________ cause she said Its the only thing that could make me smile and get my life back. Cause ______ had been always there for me and waiting for me to forgive her. *sighs* I don't know.

Till Then
stay Safe
God Bless ^^

I've Lost

2010-10-17T19:44:00.002+08:00

Finally,I've Lost.I've Lost to everything.

Nothing seems right in the path i'm taking now.It's my fault.yes everything was my fault.Those fights,laughters.Yes definitely everything.I shouldn't have only listened to only one side of the story.I should have heard your voice to.Your explanation.I'm disappointed in myself.This wasn't the way i wanted it to be.Right now,definitely not.When i used to laugh & smile without hesitation or faking it all everything.To realize everything now,Its just influence that i couldn't push it by myself.You should have come and explain everything to me.Wouldn't that be a balance and everything gonna be okay till today? After all,this is the path i took.This is the mistake i made.The regret that i'm feeling.And the longing of the past. I'm totally disappointed in myself. I've been wanting to voice it out,but just i was embarrassed to face you.The small voices,those whispers,that gossips.I've finally woken up.I saw how the world revolves and how this was coming back to me. if you would ask me if i was angry.I would say yes.For two things.For making someone lose their life/mind and for not helping me.The biggest mistakes that i did was kicking you out.

shake your dirt off

2010-10-16T13:34:00.002+08:00

4MINUTE - What a girl wants

Yeah, this is my first story
Say oh, oh, oh, baby, la, la, la, la, la
Say oh, oh, oh, honey, la, la, la, la, la

All men are the same
You don’t know anything, you couldn’t even get my hints
Oh gosh, you are driving me crazy

My new hairstyle and new shoes
When I ask how is it
You don’t know anything about it

Instead of using your credit card
Show me a troubled heart when I am mad
I can’t tell really your heart
Please tell me straight up

“I love you” that one sentence
How long are you going to be indecisive
Oh, from now on
Please tell me

One, when we hold hands please Intertwine them
Two, when annoyed, just smile
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
Even when I tell you, you don’t know

Three, call don’t text
Four, make sure you make an eye contact when we talk
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
You really don’t know my feeling

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants
Louder, louder, say it louder for me
Again, again show it to me

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants
Oh, Stay with me longer, longer
I do, I do, promise me

Time flew by since we’ve first met
Don’t even know if it’s 100 days or 1000 days
And how could you forget my birthday

It’s okay, sometimes stuffs happens
But you, how could you not even know
My phone number

Oh, bad, she just bling, bling
It’s not accessory, those two eyes that makes me laugh
I, I, I want it, want it
You, You, can you stay here

Oh, those words in your heart
The word “love” is word of trust
Oh, from now on
Show-show-show it to me

One, when we hold hands please Intertwine them
Two, when annoyed, just smile
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
Even when I tell you, you don’t know

Three, call don’t text
Four, make sure you make an eye contact when we talk
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
You really don’t know my feeling

Say oh, oh, oh, baby, la, la, la, la, la
Say oh, oh, oh, honey, la, la, la, la, la

You don't know what, you don't know what
What a girl wants
You don't know what, you don't know what
What a girl wants

One, when we hold hands please Intertwine them
Two, when annoyed, just smile
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
Even when I tell you, you don’t know

Three, call don’t text
Four, make sure you make an eye contact when we talk
Don’t know, don’t know, don’t know, don’t know
You really don’t know my feeling

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants
Louder, louder, say it louder for me
Again, again show it to me

You don’t know what a girl wants
What a girl, what a girl wants
Oh, Stay with me longer, longer
I do, I do, promise me

You don't know what a girl wants

I was invisible

2010-10-06T12:04:00.002+08:00

I didn't go to school again today.and i swear i screwed my Paper 1 yesterday! I was at the clinic when i suddenly remember that i spell Doctor as Doctor in malay when it was suppose to be Doktor.Nice 1 yes i know! I know,I've not been laughing so much these past few days. Oh well,as if like they care if i really do. Recently, I look up to Huimin,Zaza,Evelyn and my Sis a lot. Oh and jolly well they know if i cried or not. Things has rather been really tough. I've tried to act normal but i just couldn't. The more I tried,the more it kills me. But I've to keep some things to myself cause i just don't know how to express those words. I'm trying to get this off my mind but the impact of thhis is,I couldn't sleep.I Have Insomnia every night. One of the reason why i didnt want to go to school was because of this. yes That issue. I couldn't bear to control those tears. Its hard to close one eye and be pirates. So that's the reason why i kept myself silent. Because on this issue There's no one there for me to confess to. I'm dying alone there and i don't feel they need me there. I felt a little better with huimin and Kakak and zaza and Evelyn's encouragement words. Ohh and also Minchul oppa (from TMAX) sweet words. I kind of tell him what happen and he said "My shoulder is for you" . Of course i smiled. Then some of his fans keep RT.and my @mention was flooded. At least It make me feel better. yeah at least . Rather than being ignored at. Hmph. Nvm. its no use talking about this.

Peace

God Bless ^^

Love is .... OUCH!

2010-10-02T00:37:00.003+08:00

2NE1 - Love is Ouch [ENGLISH TRANSLATIONS]

[All] Break it down now
Break it down now
Break it down now
This how it’s goin’ down

[Minzy] You say you love me but why
Do you keep making it so hard for me?
What is it exactly that you’re upset about
Recently your increased interference
and meddling is wearing me out

[CL] Hey, like that, I’ve been avoiding
Your phone calls for the past few days again
I tell you what’s going on
Your promise to make only me happy, boy
Tell me what’s up, what’s up, you’ve changed a lot

[Dara] You’re trying to overcome this easily
But it seems our time’s already up,
Time to say good bye, don’t pretend like you can’t hear me
We were over a long time ago, now turn your head away
I’m singing a break-up song, bye my love

[Minzy] I’m going to fly higher to that far away place
I’m not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It’s a new start, now it’s time to part ways
Once again, I’m boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you’ll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[CL] Sighs that naturally come out in the middle of our increased arguments
We’re doing wrong to each other, and you know this too, that I’m better without you
Whenever we fight our repetitive, guilty fights, we always try to win against the other
I hate myself when I’m like this and so I hate you more, I’m trying to erase you now

[Dara] Please think of farewell as love as well
You’d drive me crazy
Being like this, I don’t think I can help but hate you
Instead I’ll tell you, it’s over, now turn your head away
I’m singing a breakup song, goodbye my love

[CL] I’m going to fly higher to that far away place
I’m not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It’s a new start, now it’s time to part ways
Once again, I’m boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you’ll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[CL] Wherever I go, I will think of you
You’re always next to me, always by my side
[Bom] I’ll pray for you, bring my two hands together
That you’re happy, and that we’re forever forever forever together

[Dara] ‘m going to fly higher to that far away place
I’m not going to be fooled anymore by sweet temptations
It’s a new start, now it’s time to part ways
Once again, I’m boldly making my exit

[Bom] So as expected from you, I hope that you’ll
Be free from me forever, this moment right now
Love is always ouch and always comes with pain
I will forget you now

[All] Break it down now
It’s almost over now

[Dara] I won’t forget, day and night
The memories I always had with you
Memories I had with you

Source: Daum
Romanized by kimchi hana @ ygladies.com
Translated by elise & GEE @ ygladies.com

It hurts this much

2010-09-30T19:50:00.004+08:00

2NE1 - It Hurts (Slow) [ENGLISH TRANSLATIONS]

[CL] You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You’ll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

[Minzy] It seems that we’re already too late
Has our love already ended
Please at least say anything to me
We truly loved each other, can’t turn back?

[Dara] I’m the only one hurting tonight

[Bom] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
[CL] You told me cruely that you couldn’t deny
That you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

[Bom] Are we already too late? Is our love over?
Even if it’s a lie, please tell me it isn’t so
I can do better now, though we can’t meet again

[Dara] I’m the only one in pain tonight

[CL] Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] You’re no longer your old self
[CL] Because the you I loved
And the you now are so different
[Dara] Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried
Watching you become further away
[Bom] No way, I can’t recognize
You’re not mine anymore

[Dara] Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Did you really have to change?
Can’t you come back?

Did you have to change?
Can’t you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Can’t you keep loving me?

[Bom] Oh, is this the end?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When I, I think about you
[Minzy] It hurts, hurts, hurts so much

[Minzy] It hurts, it hurts
[CL] It hurts, it hurts

Source: Daum
Translated & Romanized by kimchi hana @ YGLadies.com

What If......

2010-09-27T18:43:00.004+08:00

Yo!Heh! I was Busy for the past few days as Jay Park is here :)) Of course i will get busy right? But hell yeah i only saw him once! Damn it! Its kind of saddening But how i wish i would not be a cry baby and cry for him again and again because i couldn't see him. Am such a cry Baby! *sobs*

Well Saturday was Jay's fan Meet Tour at wavehouse.so decided to head to City Hall and go to his Hotel to see him but since there's F1 going on and the Road was close and we were lazy to walk,we decided to head down to Sentosa. But we ended up buying a 40 bucks ticket form this small little kid. and he was super Cute! HAHAH! Damn funny! When we reached there,the JayWalkers were q-ing at the oppsite side where i'm standing.I was standing near the toilet. So when evelyn and Eka Giving the kid the $$ i saw Jay's vehicle! And i was like Jumping up and down and holding eka's hand. and so JUNIOR saw me and he pointed at ME and i was like "Fcuk!JUnior looking!Junior Looking!" and so i could see StepRoc laughing.HAHAH!

entered Wavehouse and the feel of a HipHop gig was there!So what do you expect?I get so hyped up!It was definitely my thing!It was a sort of Beach Party also.Cause there's a pool in between and some girls changed to bikinis!I was super enjoying myself lar but eka and Evelyn looked BORED.Cause in the first place i drag both of them to see Jay.HAHA! But Hell yeah Thanks to them i could see JAY!But guess the last part was the BEST! I think even Evelyn went GoGoGaGa over it.HAH! Went to their vehicle and wait for them! and SUPERB I SAW HEP!I was shouting my lungs out when i say Hep!And so the sort of 'Mini bus' drove slowly past me(i was the first person the 'mini bus' drove past) i saw Andrew and i was like knocking on his window and he was SHOCKED and was like "chill!chill~" i was finding for HEP! and SAW HEP HE WAS DOING HEART SHAPED! And so i was selfish, i wouldn't let anyone put their hand there and so i stick my hand there to match with Hep's :p And my Darling evelyn saw JAY and she was like "JAY did Heart to me !" ahahah! Funny thing! But I'm sorry Jay,I think I am heed over heels in love with HEP! I LOVE HEP DOT COM! :p

Wanted to go to Attica and club with Jay but I was underage and i would be the youngest! Damn it! 3 more years! just 3 more! its gonna fly fast,i believe.HAHA! But I've entered some :p HEH! Ok shut Up!

ohhh and Jay is going back tomorrow :(( SAD CASE! I must and I will send him off.If not I guess and i bet i can't control my emotions. Told ya! Jay made me become a Cry Baby! HAHA! eka was talking to Aunt on the phone and she was saying "Our BabyGirl would do anything to meet Jay.She's crazy!" heh! i know i CRAZY. :p

Anyway I'm Blabbering to much.Should Stop.

Peace,Stay safe.

God Bless!

The Moment you Talked.

2010-09-15T21:45:00.007+08:00

Hello People!

I'm Gonna post all pictures cause I've got nothing interesting to story about.

All pictures from Abg Heri and Abg Fad's DSLR.

This is not all but i'm such a lazy bum so choose and click cause There's too much pictures.

till then the next post

God Bless^^

I don't think its right

2010-09-14T20:53:00.003+08:00

Hello Good People.

I'm feeling really terrible right now.

Didn't go to school yesterday but today i did.But i was in so much pain.Had stomach cramps in the morning.Had a Big ulcer in my mouth and i couldn't talk properly.Then after school My tummy was..i feel like people punching my stomach continuously.Then my Lips and throat was dry up because of my ulcer.Had sexual talk after school till 6 and i felt like dying.Reached home and i couldn't take it and drop infront of the gate.I was perspiring like damn much. i knocked the door so hard and Ika was too slow to open the door.! Gosh! seriously the pain was killing me!ok cut it about the pain thingy cause i'm still in pain.My tongue hurt to the maxx!

I am counting down to 25th September! And seriously thinking about it makes me to excited! MUAHAHAHH! I Can't wait to see Jay,Hep,ChaCha,Junior,DialTone,Steproc!! Wohooo!

Oh and counting down to October too! I Guess The best year ever!

Anw Visit http://advocate-local.tumblr.com

Later on the post.

God bless ^^

I don't need one

2010-09-10T23:46:00.002+08:00

TGIF!

First day of Raya was....how should i put it? I can't describe it in words but am truly exhausted! Slept at around 4am in the morning and woke up at 7.Help Mum with cleaning up the living room cause it was still in a mess! and That sister of mine that Hippo have yet to wake up.She slept like around 12 and woke up at 11.Well done and Grandpa was pissed with her and kind of like didn't talk to her for the whole day.and yes Hippo was totally an asshole.grrrr! Took a shower and went to 399 to grab some flowers but the sho were all closed so went to NTUC and bought love letter and that's when i saw Edwin with his golden brown hair.NICE(Y)! Since my hair was being such a bitch that i couldn't go to the salon and do treatment,i rushed to the salon nearby and cut my fringe!IT WAS SUCH A DISASTER!it was less than 5 minutes that women cut my fringe ok! and my fringe looks real ugly! Rushed back home and i thought i was the maid in the house -_- . i was real busy in the kitchen till night.and here i'm blogging after done with so much stuffs.

colleted green packets and got $100 for the first day(Y)!

I was called 'Babygirl' again. HAHA! Thanks to Park JaeBum :)) cause of the time that i cried for him.Those days..i mean now still.when i see him Happy. I'm the youngest so what do you expect. Some people had been calling me 'BabyGirl'. so yar. I prefer Princess though. opps! I just thought i was going to puke blood.!Hah!

Alright!till here.My eyes telling me to close it.ahahha!

and Upon this post,I would like to wish all the Muslims Selamat Hari Raya.

and to my friends and cousins,I would like to see forgiveness if i ever done wrong to you or ignore you or whatever sins i've done to you,or say things about you,I'm so sorry for that.and SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN ^^

*i'll reply to all the message soon!I've got at least 10.Sorry I've been busy*

Much Love everybody

Peace!

God Bless ^^

안녕 사랑

2010-09-08T11:41:00.003+08:00

ahah random.with bro ^^

Hello Wednesday!
ok today is the last 2 days of the fasting month. oh yes! Me like this ttm! I'm being a lazy pig today. Woke up at 9 and was on the internet till now.yeah! I should be helping in the kitchen right. ok LOL.but i have no mood to do anything excluding using the lappy.

I have yet to shower but was planning to do so after updating this.so yeah. I've been wanting to watch Haunted Changi in the cinema. I heard it was scary towards the ending and some say the story wasn't real.I don't know.When was the last movie i watch in the cinema? It was Percy Jackson. Gosh Logan Lerman is damn HOT! yeahh! its been months since i went to the cinema. I've been wanting to watch Step Up 3D too but i just didnt have time! yeahh! kind of like busy woman. ahahah! ok that's so fake.

Today 8th of September!it was the day that a sad thing happened to Jay.yes! exactly one year! How fast time flies.really.And the day i cried so badly for Jay was on the 8th of september.I didn't want him to leave though but everything happens for a reason,yeah.We should open a new book and Don't let the past destroy your future.We have to get over some things sometime.

On the other hand,I've been getting a lot of love advice from my followers on twitter.awww they are so much of a help.Actually the story wasn't suppose to be like this.Its already hectic enough that its a complicated thing going around between us.Zaza said he was already trying to give me a hint but i thought it wasn't as we were already so close so it was nothing special if he was trying to be caring and such.ok enough said.Maybe we are just platonic friends thats all.

I can't wait for 25th September like seriously! Wohooo! Gonna party like crazy shit! Gonna see Mr Hep and i wanna see how short he is,Jay,chacha,Junior,dialtone,daniel and hope Andrew will be there too.HAHHA!or Gonzo. It would be damn DOPE!

Ohh and anw there a new update up on http://advocate-local.tumblr.com/ and support Azri for the eco music challenge song writing competition. Just click click on the Link and 'LIKE' the post and if they ask you to fill in your partuculars don't worry and just fill it in.Spread the word yo!

peace
God Bless

My Trip to the market

2010-09-07T13:35:00.002+08:00

Craving for this now ^^

my title was "a trip to the market" HAHAH! Believe me , i never step inside the wet market for almost 2 years now. yes serious shit! Cause I HATE GOING TO MARKETS! One of the reason was because its a MARKET of course the smell is 'good' too right. *insert the stars going around on top of my head*

Oh so here the story goes.
Grandma woke me up at 7 and i said 5 more minutes and again i slept for another 2 more hours and woke up at 9! well done to me ! went out at around 10 and I don't actually know what i was wearing because it look too simple.Basic short,t-shirt and slippers! Took the bus and reached the market and i was like OMG so many aunties and uncles are there. Start to walk in with Grandma while Grandpa sat at the corner. OH MY GOD what the hell did i just saw? It was the disgusting thing ever!! Guess what ! The Fish seller just suck his damn mucus and spit it on the floor where he put his boxes of fish there! and i was like "can i go vomit now?" i thought i was going die inside the market. and like not only that since its a WET market so what do you expect,its WET. and I don't know which aunty walked pass me and splash the muddy water on my leg till my ankle. GOSH! I thought i need some GaGa shoes. It was damn hectic and too much of chaos. TOO MUCH OF HAPPENING PEOPLE TOO. i hate squeezing ,really hate it. Even if there's a bus and there's a lot of people in it, i would give up and wait for another bus which is still spacious for me to walk through. some are really Kiasu you know. Since they are very kiasu i let them go first and be more kiasu.

I am really sleepy right now BUT I have to help Mum bake the cookies. gosh! I'm damn tired please. I need a massage chair right now. My body aching everywhere.

Have a great Day ahead People.
God bless ^^

Awesome

2010-09-06T18:22:00.004+08:00

My Fav. word this month is "AWESOME" . LOL!

Had an awesome week i guess. jyeahhh! I've not been updating real much though. Been rather busy with Twitter,Tumblr and Facebook. LOL. Too much sites.

oh and Yeah went to Reena's Chalet for her birthday yesterday! I HAD FUN! LOL! excluding the last part when i couldn't get a cab and waited for 1 hour. -______- its really dumb. As months and days pass by, i could see how the mates gets closer to one another. i mean like seriously,its already a good progress. Thumbs up!

Friday,went to LCSS anni dinner at Grand Mecure Roxy Hotel. The food was nice excluding the dessert.

actually,I've run out of ideas how to update blogs.seriously! and i've lost quite a number of readers due to lack of update.Maybe i should really update everyday like i used to. Maybe.I should try.

oh and Anw do drop by at http://advocate-local.tumblr.com/ and download FeekeeD's new track called POWER(freestyle) now.! and If you had missed RichJ and Sheikh Haikel's performance during YOG Closing Ceremony, you can check that out and download the track too :))

SUPORT LOCAL HIPHOP !

anw one more,watch!

DOPE !
and he looks like ....... errr.....him?oh jyeahh! i really don't want to bring up the past so i'll just shut up and stop blabbering how much they look alike..
how i found out about this andrew thingy was because of Jay's live streaming on the 4th.hahah LOL!Kind of cute huh he? ok LOL!

Alright!
Have a Happy and Great Week ahead!
God Bless ^^

even if there's paparazzi

2010-09-01T15:40:00.002+08:00

I've gone through so much!
damn! I don't know what I'm feeling right now seriously!
I don't care if they even fcuking laugh.
That day was the most memorable day for me at least if not.
How i wish i could turn back time.

Confused

2010-08-17T20:50:00.002+08:00

DOK2 & Rado Ft. Jay Park - Doin` Good (Remix)

2010-08-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

[Dok2 & Jay Park]
I got some special guest tonight
Coming from Seattle
Gonzo, Jay park,
Let’s do this, Let’s go

[Rado]
Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’m walkin’ my own road

Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’ll be here forever

Talk to me, Yo check it

[Jay Park]
Even if my bowling pins fall to the floor,
I always get right back up
Even if I go to sleep at night,
I wake right up the next morning
I walk my own road, I’ll build it all myself
If my feet get dirty, I’ll wash my feet before I go

I’m good baby, nothing is gonna faze me
In your face just so you haters can see me HD
So real, I wasn’t just an easy target thus far
I’ll sprinkle sugar at life and live on sweetly

Forget the milk, I grow by drinking hate
Park Jaebum, blah blah, you asking if I’m scared of you?
Not at all, whether it’s good or bad,
I’m just thankful that I’m still the center of your attention

Whatever the situation, I’m always cool like a fridge
I walk barefoot on top of ashes from hell
Untouchable, just look at me
Whether you like it or not,
the only person changing this world is me

[Rado]
Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’m walkin’ my own road

Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’ll be here forever (Forever)

[Jay Park]
I’m doin’ good baby, I’m doin’ good (x4)

[Dok2]
I’m doin’ good baby, I’m doin’ good (x4)

[Dok2]
I-I keep it dirty but my flow is so smooth like clean and clear
It’s been like 9 years in the game, but I’m standing here
I ain’t going nowhere.
I’m straight like Korean hair, ha!
Picture me ballin’ thunderground and the illionaire, yeah

You got a problem with my business, just screw off
Still big things poppin’ boy, explode as if it’s like that
Your hatin’ is too soft, it doesn’t even make a mark on my path
I cam a long way, but I’m not even out of breath

There’s no such thing as moderation or departure
Bust some rhymes, give me some more, hurry it up, I’ve grown once more
Can’t keep my mouth shut tighter than the minute before
Can’t cover your ears, you’ll never block my path
I’m doin’ good, good, that means I’m doing’ good
I’m a thunder, not an under, this is where my position’s at
I’m never short of the money that keeps pillin’ in my bank account
Young king young boss tell me who the flyest be

[Rado]
Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’m walkin’ my own road

Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’ll be here forever (Forever)

[Jay Park]
I’m doin’ good baby, I’m doin’ good (x4)

[Dok2]
I’m doin’ good baby, I’m doin’ good (x4)

[Rado]
Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’m walkin’ my own road

Yeah I’m doin’ good, Yeah I’m doin’ me
Oh , everybody knows I’m living a good life
No matter what anyone says,
I’ll be here forever (Forever)

Taeyang - You're My

2010-07-31T13:59:00.000+08:00

Since some time ago
I've been call you first, more and more
I already call you baby at the places you aren't at
It's quite funny to me, too

You're my chocolate
My sweetest chocolate
I really wanna have you
You, who is so sweet
I wanna have you
Wanna have you

So that you'll be able to lean on me
So that you can feel a nice happiness
I'll give you my everything

You're my ice cream
My sweetest ice cream
I really wanna have you
You, who is so sweet
I wanna have you
Wanna have you

The one who gave me the gift of love, that's you
The one person who gave me that dazzling love
That's what you are

To you, who is looking at me
I'll sing a song just for you

You're my candy
Lollipop candy
I really wanna kiss you
I really wanna love you

CREDIT:
Hangul & Romanization: justhyuu@flowinglyrics // flowinglyrics@twitter
Translation: kimchi hana @ Soompi

Nagging - IU & SeuLong

2010-07-29T21:45:00.001+08:00

Stop coming home so late.
Try to stop drinking.
You’re just like a 10 years old kid who won’t listen.

I can’t help but to laugh,
Who’s calling whom a kid?
Honestly, I can’t help but to laugh.

You don’t understand why I end up lecturing.
You wouldn’t understand how I want to have a good conversation.
Shall we stop?
Let’s stop.

One to ten, everything I say is for your own good.
It’s so obvious that what I say is nothing but a nag to you.
Let’s stop, let’s stop,
There’s not enough time even if we just love.

This lecture is from the bottom of my heart.
I can’t stop the lecture even if you hate it.
Let’s stop, let’s stop,
All I can hear is you nagging.

Wondering if you eat on time,
Or if you’re distancing yourself from other women.
I want to stay by your side the whole day.
That’s exactly how I feel,
If I could carry you around in my pocket
I would be really happy.

The conversation which needs both of us.
The conversation which others might find it funny.
Shall we stop?
Let’s stop.

One to ten, everything I say is for your own good.
But it’s obvious that it’s nothing more than a nag to you.
Let’s stop, let’s stop,
There’s not enough time even if we just love.

This lecture is from the bottom of my heart.
I can’t stop the lecture even if you hate it.
Let’s stop, let’s stop,
Can you hear my nagging?

No matter how much I glare or intimidate.
To me it’s just a cute face.
Will you stop it already, I won’t be able to hold back my anger
And might really get mad.

I wouldn’t say it if I don’t love you.
Words from my heart, which cares about you more than anyone.
You may get mad or yell at me,
But, to me even your naggings are sweet.

It’s the kind of lecture you can only say if you love,
But it’s obvious that it’s nothing more than a nag to you.
Let’s stop, let’s stop,
Just believe in my heart.

cr:http://asianmusiclover.wordpress.com

ShiGGa Shay's in the Building! (The Mixtape)

2010-07-28T16:57:00.004+08:00

Yes ! That is ShiGGa Shay! Today, he had release his mixtape!And I swear I Love It! Dope tracks!So why don't you support Him by Downloading his Tracks at http://shiggashay.bandcamp.com

I'm sure its not going to take so much of you time right?SO GO DOWNLOAD IT NOW!!!!!

false front

2010-07-27T19:04:00.005+08:00

I've Been spending my time on Tumblr FaceBook and Twitter ;))) I'll try to update everyday like i used to.I'll try.muahahahha!

anyway Bibik's chacha wedding was i think the wedding of the year.So who's next?Mine will be like 123456789 long years more to go!With who?How should the hell i know?Spill the beans about being single for 2 years 33 weeks.Yes!Long indeed and counting till my next.Anyway the wedding was NICE!But i had two swollen little toe the next day and i didn't go to school.i mean like the whole family didn't go to work or school.Nice one!

BUT somehow,I was really pissed at how some family could be so heartless.I mean like seriously.Even though i admit i didn't help much But at least i know how to think and care for others.Can't you just like stick your butt for a few hours till the wedding ends , Its not like they boss you around to do some work.I mean like Hello Its a basic respect for your elders and the newly married couple.Think of how they would feel lar after they did so much when you got married.Nincompoop is it you?How could you be so pure,quiet and innocent infront of us but in fact your MOUTH was like the duck's butt!Actually, i used to be just fine with dealing with you and the others bossy-ness but now,i really cannot take it.seriously you gold digger!

If you think or anybody think that my grandparents treat us differently,serves you right!I don't think i was like that as a kid and i don't even remember not being close with any of the family members.And i don't think kakak did either.Try to shave of those money,i'll shave your hair first.If you want to aspect more then work on it and stop being self-indulgent and unfair.So if you want to be treated the same way please, work on your etiquette . Thanks ! We would kindly appreciate that.

p/s:my dearest sister and bibik'ssssss .I've put it!

28th July Mixtape TRAILER

2010-07-27T18:59:00.000+08:00

ShiGGaShay 's

Lucifer

2010-07-26T21:26:00.000+08:00

SHINEE - Lucifer

Even if I try to avoid you, I can’t find a place to hide
I’m trapped by you, who I can’t even deny
If it was love, if you really loved me, don’t do this to me
Her whisper is the Lucifer

*If you tie me down and trap me
Then the love is also tied down
The future is also tied down
It can’t grow anymore
Freely empty yourself and look at me
I’ll fill you only, I’ll completely fill you only

Your undeniable spell is the Lucifer
Your undeniable magic is the Lucifer
When I approach you
With your angelic face
Say the reason you live is for me
Say it

When I first saw you, I stopped for a short time
As if someone was tightly seizing my heart, not letting it go (Still)
You took all, all, all, all, all, all of my heart just like that
You make my heart burn out when you’re not here

*If you tie me down and trap me
Then the love is also tied down
The future is also tied down
It can’t grow anymore
Freely empty yourself and look at me
I’ll fill you only, I’ll completely fill you only

Loverholic, robotronic, loverholic, robotronic

The love stories I shared with you
You look towards the same places I do
When we feel that we can’t get any more perfect
Only stare at me, you want me more, more, more, more, more, more
Only look at me, you’re the center of everything, thing, thing, thing, thing, thing

Since before, something has been wrong, you’ve been weird
The love I knew left my side, one by one
All I have is you

*If you tie me down and trap me
Then the love is also tied down
The future is also tied down
It can’t grow anymore
Freely empty yourself and look at me
I’ll fill you only, I’ll completely fill you only

I feel like I’ve become a clown trapped in a glass castle
I dance for you, who will never be satisfied
You look into me openly, touching my brain
I think I’ve become a fool
I think I’m only getting more and more attracted to you

Loverholic, robotronic, loverholic, robotronic

It’s not that I hate you or that I dislike you
It’s just that kind of stare is a burden is all
I’m not going anywhere
I’ve waited like this by only looking at you

Your stare captures me
As the days went by, it became sharper
I’m tired of your obsession
I’ve been cut a lot, my heart is bleeding
When it’s about time for me to pass out
She comes to me like an angel, saying “I love you”
Even though I knew it was really you
You really confused me

*If you tie me down and trap me
Then the love is also tied down
The future is also tied down
It can’t grow anymore
Freely empty yourself and look at me
I’ll fill you only, I’ll completely fill you only

I feel like I’ve become a clown trapped in a glass castle
Leave me alone, when I’m free, I’ll be able to truly love you
Leave me alone, don’t make me sick of you
So I can truly look at you

If you tie me down and trap me
Then love is also tied down
The future is also tied down
It can’t grow anymore
Loverholic, robotronic, loverholic, robotronic
Your undeniable spell is the Lucifer

Credit:kimchi hana @ shineee.net

Haw (prepix) ft. Jay (aom)

2010-07-22T19:49:00.000+08:00

Random

2010-07-16T22:31:00.005+08:00

Its only 10 but my eyes are already Tired -_____________- School had been really suckish! suckish!and suckish!oh wait no ... Its starting to get Lame.Threaten here Threaten there.Oh wait,I haven't even once talk about my form teacher in here,did i?I don't think so.....right? Oh well , Its only going waste my energy typing about her.

I do miss my old mates.They are still the best.They are my Bees .

as Feri always said ,3C is only Good at Doing Silly And Bad Things Together. ahahahah! 3C , new environment . Its been 7 months we sat together in a new class , new cliques. They are somewhat Funny,Fun and can be irritating at times.But i guess the love in 3C is still growing.

My kpop rants had been an issue.Its too addictive,get what i mean?

Ok I'm Bored right now.Seriously Bored.oh and Bik Chacha's wedding is like in a few days time! Oh My gosh! seems like time flies so fast.seriously!and that i almost forget about it :p heh! wohhoooo! and upcoming colour theme is Green.will be wearing a green baju kurung on that day! woots woots!wait i forgot to insert "although i hate green" muahahah!

Ok before i talk crap I'll better be stopping it here and end it here.

Till the next update :))

ohhh

Do Drop By Here http://advocate-local.tumblr.com/

Jay Park- Count on me ( nothing on you)

2010-07-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

Betrayed.

2010-07-11T13:47:00.004+08:00

Hey people its Sunday today and i'm stuck at home doing nothing and just sitting on this chair and face this screen.Comp still being treated by Abang Fad and currently i'm using my lappy.My mind is not at ease now that I'm not going out.I feel like i'm being grounded and pushed to the corner.Was wishing and was hoping that i could get to see the 4 boys.But my wishes was crushed by unknown people.I wouldn't say i hated them but its just that don't they feel guilty?Again,you guys had just crushed my confidence down the drain.I was trying to change myself and not to let people like you step on my head and take me for granted.I agree with myself.I'm slow.I'm fickle.I'm easy.I'm naive.I'm blunt.And i always agree and listen to what everything people say.

The reason why i don't show my angry or sadness side its because I've always wanted to make myself be happy and that's the reason why you will see me smile and laugh so often.Because thats the only time where i can rest my mind and try to forget about how mean you people are.I'm not asking for anything in return.And even of you don't know i'm talking about you here,I don't mind.Because I'm going to appear in front of you as the way i am.The Happy Blunt Smiling Me just as i used to be.

I don't really show my emotions you know.Only if i really find you irritating and i can't take it anymore,Here comes those words that you wouldn't want to expect coming out from my mouth.It'll be like a shooting bullets you know.I've done it before and seriously i hate it.Because i hate it when they start to cry in front of me.Pathetic-_-

I'm not only talking about one person but plenty.But i don't hold to grudges.

Anyway guys,Do Check This out http://advocate-local.tumblr.com/ and If you want us to promote or update about your Band,Group,Gigs or just anything about LOCAL,Don't be shy and Email us.We want to hear from YOU.We've been getting a lot of responds.And Thumbs Up its all Good :D You Can also Text or Beep us up if ONLY you have Our Number.Thank you so much!

Earth

2010-07-04T22:41:00.005+08:00

I've lost again.hahahah!

the reason is because i have so much site to update,and i don't really have much time to update this blog.I just went all over SG during holidays .To IMM a lot,Mediacorp,ST James,Airport,stuck at masjid kassim bustop at 2am with no bus,Simei basically a lot of random places.I'm so lazy to post any other picture so huhu go and check out at my FaceBook. :) If you're a kpop fan,there's folders of them that i took.Go check them out. :) oh and anyway Have you guys download DaFam's WhereGotTime mixtape?i'm telling ya,its definitely not a waste to download it and put it in your playlist.Seriously!Their tracks are damn awesome and its DOPE!Go Download it seriously its worth while waiting for it to finish downloading!Two-thumbs up for DaFam WheregotTime Mixtape!

DownLoad link www.onevoiceonemic.com Supprts Locals Everyone :))

Enough

2010-06-18T17:29:00.002+08:00

I've been going through alot recently.Its hard for me still.And i don't know why I'm crying right now.My eyes all swollen now.This started since last night.I kept bragging about how my life suck after what happened that day ,yet still we both weren't official yet.I'm just so upset. But on the other Hand.Jay is BACK.And when i saw the picture,my tears just keep streaming down my cheeks.I was Happy!I don't know if my tears was tears or joy or the opposite.I mean like seriously.I'm Having mix feelings right now and i don't even know how pathetic i feel right now.I'm trying to just encounter this by myself.Crying is how i try to get rid of it.I've tried.But its pointless.I'm sick and tired of you.Its just so over.Its just so hard to get over someone like you.I hate guys who give me hope.So stop telling me that i have to understand your situation and that those Bi*ch are bothering you.If then just tell her off!I'm just over all your nonsense.Let's just forget about all your vampire and your robert Pattinson craps.I just get rid of your folder and all your pictures.And i feel that my computer feels a lot more lighter.But i forgot that most of your folders are in the laptop.Damn!But who knows that my tumblr need some spamming of that.OK Let's just put it this way,Me and you are just fated to know each other but not fated to be together.But just a little thanks for those times.

2 MORE DAYS TO THE REAL DAY!NERVOUS!

AND YES!JAY IS BACK!

Jay Park Billionaire (cover)

2010-06-16T13:42:00.000+08:00

Again

2010-06-14T15:25:00.003+08:00

I'm back and I'm still alive!Heh!ok Random.

I have to say this,I kinda of miss camp.I know!i wasn't suppose to be like this.At first i thought i was going to die at camp.But spending the 3 days with my group was the best thing ever.Somehow i can't remember all of their names and there were like only 3 Malays in my group(me,Amira,and Ridhwan)and somehow there were only 3 NA.And i'm the only one from 3C.and the rest were all express.ok so what?We are all Human Beings!OK whatever.Stop about Camp thingy.

Holidays had been real awesome!Damn!I'm speechless!

Its heaven man!

Sleep early, wake up in the evening.

Super heaven!

wohooooo!

OK shut up!

I sleep more than i eat or do anything else.

I wake up at 12 watch tv and go back to sleep!

My dark eye circles are all running away.and I'm happy!

Actually GOSH I DAMN HAPPY NOW CAUSE Its just like 6 more days and he arrive!Damn!

I mean like seriously after two damn fcuking years!Its like once in a lifetime to see KIM KIBUM(u-kiss) puahahah!THE GUY WHO MAKE ME CRAZY INTO KPOP!yes its Kim KiBum!damn!OK shut up about KiBum already.

and yes!Its gonna be almost 3 months that i know you.Although people might think 'oh its just 3 months not 3 years' BUT for me 3 months is LONG.But not long enough to know the real you.But i know we've gotten much closer.Somehow much closer than i thought it would be.I mean like seriously.But i think too close that my account was hack 3 times this month.It never happened before.I can understand the feelings of your 'fans'.some are calling you 'honey~' or whatever 'boyfriend~' thingy.so i just roll eye balls and close one eye.It's not that i don't care.But its like FIRE~ in the inside.hahahah ok shut up.I'll get this straight,ME and MR N are just Friends.(although he drop my initial and replace it with other names.Its just the way we speak.Duh)

Ok whatever.I'm seriously addicted to TUMBLR and TWITTER!Its much easier.seriously.

I don't even need to type that much and just like REblog it or Retweet it.Tadddaaaa!It already explain how i'm feeling /doing.

K whatever.Off for now.

Random

2010-05-29T22:21:00.006+08:00

I'm like freaking dead lazy to go to camp i mean like seriously!

I would rather be at home sleeping and wake up in the afternoon since holidays are here.

Thursday night went down to Scape to catch the...Okay i forgot what event was that.

head down there with Ferina a.k.a Villa sanchez's wife to catch wei kiat's and our school dance performance.

It was alright.But seriously i like one of the crew (i forgot where they came from) that came down and they won!Their moves were damn awesome!

Friday Night went to JP.Meet up with evelyn and our excited mode went up.was suppose to get some things for camp but i just bought one thing.pfft.ate dinner at LJS and of course i was the last to finish my food and i ended up not finishing the fries and rice.Should freaking eat Subway!damn!Bought Jay's name tag with his face on it ;)) walk around for a little while.and reached home around 11 plus to 12.

I keep going home late.Pfft!and its kinda of scary when i walking down the streets to my house because you can only freaking hear your own heartbeat,your steps and sometime the wind howling.I would sometime mumble some prayers as i walk.BECAUSE I've been warned before not to go back so late at night by my aunt who has third eye and like kind of has sixth sense. But yar still i have life.But i don't think about it too much cause it's only gonna scare me.

My Blog Kinda of Dead ,i agree.

and my Holiday are so pack with tons of schedule !I'm super so hate it excluding all the meet-ups.Oh i miss hiphop gigs!But i heard DaFam will have one! :)) Looking forward to it!

Ohh anyway Look out for updates on the Local scene at

http://advocate-local.tumblr.com

and if you want

http://advocate-local.tumblr.com

to put your stuffs just email it at

localmusic.updates@yahoo.com

Keep Rocking The Local Scene!

♥

2010-05-13T13:57:00.004+08:00

Yes!

4 more days till MYE finish!

YES!

I'll have more time to update this blog.

I kept running to tumblr because there's just so much to reblog and stuffs.

and its like TWITTER its so addictive.

And I'll relink the ones that I've missed out.

I'm so sorry.

And Please visit

>LOCALS♥<

And show some suppprt!

♥

SHIGGA SHAY - Nothin' On You (Ft. Inch Chua)

2010-05-10T19:16:00.000+08:00

Dumbfoundead & Art Of Movement Ft. Jay Park (Jaebeom Park) with Kero One...

2010-05-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

^^

2010-05-01T15:53:00.002+08:00

Goshhhh!!!!!!!!

Exams!

NO!

oh and guess what,I think i really cannot do it without listening to Jay's song or seeing his picture

Omg!Psycho sia!

hahah!

Ok stop it.

School = Suck

Oh and I'll be leaving for a 3 day camp on 31st,1 and 2nd June!

Gosh ! I dunnoe how to survive sia!

ok mis dwi herisa,What's with the "sia"?

Ok Mind your Language,please.

Love = ^^

Its not that I'm in love or something.

Its just for fun.

i think i love being single,seriously.

But i just need someone who i can share about school,love,life and just someone who i can talk to at night when i have insomnia.But just not more than that.Seeing my two ladies,envious is what i feel.Because they had one.And they kept saying that there's already someone that i need.but the thing is that i don't know who!OK whatever.But there's actually someone in mind :)) I don't mind having a long distance relationship....ok wait relationship?!i mean friendship.But I'm telling ya he ain't a Malay.I don't know why but there's a sudden change.I tend to like Chinese and Korean and japan guys.Pffft.

Life = Loving it

I'm happy with what i have right now.

The 2 ladies keep making me LAUGH EVERYDAY without fail.

And giving me advices and stuffs!

It's all Happy moments!

And Bestfriend is getting rather making me feel miserable than making me smile.

Pfft!

OK i shall cut the crap here.

Love them much

2010-04-10T12:41:00.001+08:00

I hope that we will have this gathering again including the MRVY and just each one of us.

2010-03-24T20:08:00.004+08:00

hahaha!
I know I've abandoned this blog like seriously!
Anyways there were alot of things happened for the past few months,weeks and days.
School had been real hectic.
And I've not been concentrating enough on my studies as I've been k-pop-ing too much.
and i just created tumblr http://dwi-kimtaehwan.tumblr.com and its all about my k-pop blabbers.
I hope i can really separate this blog for my daily rants and my tumblr for my k-pop rants.
Anyways those are pictures that had been left out.huhu!
I hope i can update this blog daily
hope that I won't be lazy.
and I'll RELINK SOON!Hopeully

No more 2PM for me

2010-03-01T18:02:00.004+08:00

Hmph.I've really abandoned my blog.I've been too busy with some stuffs and I'm kinda of lazy to blog,
Here i am again is because of PARK JAEBUM.
Ever heard of him?He was the leader of 2PM and will forever be the leader of 2PM.Seeing whats happening right now,things had been rather tough for him.After the controversy about the comments he made on myspace few years back and he was sent back to Seattle,Hottest was there waiting for him to comeback and supporting 2PM thinking that The rest of the 6 members wants him back.UNFORTUNATELY,we were wrong.On the day Jay went back to Seattle,the members weren't crying for him.They had their own personal reasons for crying.For example personal reasons like Breaking up with their girlfriends etc.yeah things like that.Maybe you wouldn't believe this and might think that the boys aren't like that or they are supportive for Jay.Believe this.At first,i thought they were being force by JYPE to say those thing but instead,it was from their own mouth.Right now,Nickhun was the only one who is protecting Jay.You guys might think Wooyoung and Junho would be the one crying hard wanting Jay back.But hey don't judge a book by its cover.The rest of 2Pm members excluding Nickhun wants to ditch Jay out of 2PM.They said Jay ruined their lives.But right now,who is ruining 2PM?Believe it,Taeckyeon likes to make fun of Jay calling him a "yankee".Its kinda of harsh,i know.Jay force himself to eat Korean food and puke after Taec and Junsu made harsh comments on him.the reason why is because Jay wasn't able to adjust himself to Korean food yet.Kwon from 2Am Had always been there for Jay.He would buy him burgers whenever he puke after eating Korean food.There is just too many unrevealed stories about the 6PM(Since 6 members is left).6PM is digging into their own grave.Saying that Jay had a dirty social life,fangirls who followed them 24/7 leaked out many unrevealed photos of the 6PM(excluding Nickhun).Seems that they the 6PM had a MORE dirty social life.To put everything in words,for this past few years,Jay was treated like a slave to be more specific,like a dog.I know its harsh but this is from my view right now.Why a dog?the answer is because no one cares what he feels and do things that was being told.Jay had been suffering and encountering his patience with the members who wouldn't listen to him.Even though Jay was treated this way,he protected the boys and leave back to Seattle(as what he was being told) and do his BBoy stuffs with AOMC.It breaks my heart to see how Jay had been suffering for the past few years.There is just too many stories for me to list down but For all i know,I'm not the type of person cry easily and no matter how sad the day is gonna be,i would still stand strong.HOWEVER,I REALLY DID CRY FOR THE PAST FOUR DAYS until today updating this post,tears are rolling down my cheeks.Imagine that.I really couldn't accept how they treated Jay.It really breaks my heart.For me right now,2PM doesn't exist without Jay.

If i had the opportunity to meet Jay,the first thing i would do is to cry.why cry?the answer is because I'm so happy that i could see Jay being healthy and of course seeing his hot abs(opps!so HOT)!And i would hug him and say "oppa,you did great!DAEBAK!".

To my Unnies,thanks for calling me babygirl and cheering me up!Hope your Babygirl would have a strong heart and Babygirl would always wait for Jay.

For your information,Jay isn't classified as neither my boyfriends(as you know there is super a lot) but he is classified as the MOST PRECIOUS OPPA in the WORLD!
Peace and Respect
Forever PARK JAEBUM ♥

I'm on top of the world

2010-02-03T23:35:00.004+08:00

Fan-girling is over!Gosh i miss the time so much.
Btw i spend quite a lot of cash for all their gifts.
and jyeah the most i like about what i bought was Yoogeun's Gift.Shinee's Baby!Its a giraffe watch(since i couldn't find any power ranger watches).I hope they show it on Hello Baby.I even wrote a Note.! :)) And i Put mu name as Dwi Noona :))

Till the next post with videos and pictures once everything had been settle.
Peace!
^.^

Seunghyun oppa,mianhae

2010-01-31T10:00:00.003+08:00

Sorrry for no updates.
I am chasing after my FT ISLAND Oppa and SHINEE OPPA.
I'll shall come back and post everything.
oppa if u happen to drop by,I'll post something for you at the next post.Just wait.

i think i really have to post this

2010-01-23T18:39:00.002+08:00

I REALLY CAN'T STAND THIS.AFTER I POSTED THE PREVIOUS POST,FEW MINUTES LATER I'M FLOODED WITH LINK AND POST OF PARK JAEBUM.ITS KILLING ME.I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW.I'VE TRIED STAYING POSITIVE BUT I JUST COULDN'T.ITS TOO HURTFUL.AND SADDENING.ITS HARD TO BELIEVE WHAT THE TRUTH AND WHATS NOT.I EVEN TRIED NOT TO BELIEVE IT BUT IT SEEMS TOO REAL.JUST TOO REAL THAT I COULD REALLY GET IT TO MY MIND.ITS LIKE A POISON.AND ITS KILLING ME RIGHT NOW.I'VE BEEN WAITING,FOR JUST ONE MORE DAY I HAVE TO WAIT JUST ONE MORE.BUT IT SEEMS ITS NOT GONNA BE A GOOD NEWS.*** PLEASE DON'T DO THIS TO US.BRING JAEBUM BACK AS FAST AS YOU CAN.BRING US SOME GOOD AND JOYFUL NEWS.WE ARE NOT TIRED OF WAITING FOR JAEBUM.WE ARE REALLY NOT TIRED!!!!!JAEBUM OPPA!SARANGHAEYO!JAEBUM OPPA SARANGHAEYO!JAEBUM OPPA BOGOSHIPPO!SARANGHAEYO!

Jay oppa,dorawa jebal :(

2010-01-23T16:41:00.005+08:00

"Ring Ding Dong Ring Ding Dong Ring Diggy Diggy Diggy".*i dunnoe how you spell it*
"ok so that was Shinee Ring Ding Dong"
"Ok so Next up will be the CN blue"

hahahha ok sorry was feeling of becoming a Dj.hahahah!I am going to abandoned this blog soon.hahah!in no time.

Every Friday each week school is DAMN DAMN DAMN FUN....NY.whatever shit,Friday is becoming more and more crazy!really.no kidding you nigga.ok so its suppose that today I'm gonna shop for the presents but some sushi had some other EMERGENCY plans.Gosh!its damn!

And tomorrow its gonna be the day for Park Jaebum!Pray hard Its gonna be good news for us Hottest.If its not, we, together is gonna shed tears for him and cry our hearts out.As long its for Park JAeBum .But just pray hard WE WILL RECEIVE GOOD NEWS.
Here watch this.Its from fans.See how much we love our leadja,PARK JAEBUM.our only pink Grandpa :))

If u feel like crying ,just cry.*Please feel free to watch the other video(i posted one at my FB)*.Just believe that yeah PARK JAEBUM is gonna COMEBACK.I hope.and if we're gonna cry,it would be tears of JOY.Am i right?JUST KEEP WAITING!Don't ever get tired of waiting!
PARK JAEBUM,WE ARE WAITING!I'm trying to say something strong rather than words that can make you cry cause if i do,i would be crying non stop till now.
*waiting for 1.59 to strike 2PM*
saranghaeyo ♥

But on the other hand,I'm counting down to my sweetest day.My birthday of course! :D
heh heh!

I am kind of hungry right now.I have to watch my diet so lets just eat before it strike 6.So here's my tip for those who wants to go on a diet(but i don't know if it works for you but it works for me).I've put off some weight although its not a big deal but yeah eat WHOLEMEAL BREAD for breakfast.only 2 piece!And eat more fruit and vegetables so that your digestive system flushes off the things inside.and you'll poop.and try cutting down the intake of food.And And try running away from snacks e.g potato chips etc.If you still can't get over it(like me),try those oatmeal biscuits and crackers.And and And lastly just don't forget to exercise.If you are lazy,just check out some video in YouTube and just dance to the song.

hahah ok i just sounded like some idiotic fitness instructor.but still that is what i did.F.Y.I If you think its funny just laugh cause i think its funny too.LOL i know

Here the last video that i'm gonna post.Its the JINJO CREW!If you are clueless about them go and do the google search.They are the oppa that I've been blabbering about.yeah a picture to keep as memory.and that is Wing(in the picture).Jinjo Crew is DOPE!

Saranghae,i love you oppa

2010-01-08T20:52:00.006+08:00

During the rehearsals.^^^
(since syaz didn't go for the concert,rehearsals will do,right?)

the remaining photos that was taken that night.

Knock knock!
I'm having a headache right now!erghhh!Oh and this week is the first week of school!And the uniform for me had changed!I look so Funny!yeah!The word Yeah seems so wrong to describe the feeling.And this week is so suckish!seriously!I miss my fellow 2B.It feels kind of funny to be in 3C.seriously.Its like without Syazana Sufri My environment is empty.The feeling of emptiness that me and ayinn felt.Cause its always been the three of us. :( I Miss sitting with her in class and i miss the NOISY 2B.Gosh!

Time flies too Fast.

I'm still thinking what to buy for oppa.I seriously have no idea.Should i like buy for him like headphones/earpiece since he likes this kind of stuff.And He had already own the T-shirt that i wanted to buy for him.Gosh.I have nothing else in mind.Or Or should i buy some nike dunks?!NONO i better buy nike dunks for myself.haha!sorry oppa!Ok wait why Not i buy for him the same bag that i bought from everlast?!so we can have like couple bags?? Oh Oh!arghh!cannot!Later Fleta and Mold oppa jealous.*roll eye balls*I'm so dead then.I'll go shopping then and find your things oppa! ^.^ Dun worry you'll have the present too. :D

Right now i have 45 bucks with me.still have 2 more weeks to shop.so it'll add up to 100 bucks i guess or maybe more?!yes!OMG!I can't believe i really save up money just to buy for oppa the best present.

I am dead tired and sleepy right now.I still need to go to school tmrw for the CCA thingy what what open house what lar i dunnoe.

To Afiq,PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE YOU NUMBER AGAIN CAUSE I HAVE MORE THAN 5 OF YOUR UN USED NUMBERS and i have so many Afiq in my life.and i have to keep saving and saving and saving.haha!cheeyy.Miss you lar shorty.i don't think i can call you shorty anymore cause i think YOU ARE TALLER than me now.meet up soon! :D (8 years and still counting)

i think my post is like a grandmother post.sorry!

Oh and yup i really hate it when people keep asking the same question.And I'm sick and tired of answering.Really please.Can you guys help.I'm moving on.Please Stop It.My mind will be disturbed if you guys keep going on throwing me with those question.And then It'll be hard for me.And there's no more Batman,Adidas guy or whatever the name is,you name it.I'm done.

LONG Post i could say huh?
i'll be happy and i'll always be smiling :))

Saranghae,i love you oppa

2010-01-08T20:52:00.003+08:00

haha

2010-01-04T15:19:00.003+08:00

I seriously have no idea what to update but anyway,should i believe about the twitter thingy.Its hard to say now.Its Look so real but it might be the FAKE Big Bang.get what i mean?whatever .Lets like just go with the flow.Real or Fake,they are still human!

oppa

2010-01-03T21:01:00.004+08:00

Ouh No school starts tomorrow!
I AM SO NOT READY!
i still want to be in the k-pop thingy and be the crazy fangirl.
Few more week to meet F.T Island and min hwan oppa!its okay.I'll endure it.
Anw I've been clinging myself to Twitter.And so smth great just happen today.ouh how well.Guess what T.O.P oppa replied to my tweet!!see how happy i am!It would be better if Taeyang oppa was the one who reply.Here you go the proof.

G.O.O.D love

2009-12-28T00:03:00.003+08:00

see how cute of them to put jay there!^.^but i wish he were :(

I am just being random.

BUT SERIOUSLY I AM CRAZILY IN LOVE WITH K-POP!cinca~!I know i have not been blogging much but cinca i am addicted to twitter.Follow me there and you know.

AND SERIOUSLY I AM IN LOVE WITH TAEYANG AND T.O.P FROM BIG BANG AND NOT FORGETTING KI BUM FROM U-KISS.AND ALSO MIN HWAN FROM F.T ISLAND.AND ALSO SEUNGGI.AND ALSO MIR FROM MBLAQ.

and see that its all in caps because I'm a fan!ahhaahha!cinca!they are such a hotstuffs.I know i am kind of crazy.but i won't do crazy things like cutting myself to show the love to them(some fan girl really gave them bloody letter written with their blood).hey c'mon, they are just entertainers.I'm sure by fan girl like us supporting them is enough for them to feel our love.
but dun take it to heart this is just what i think.

I WANT TO FLY TO KOREA!

What should i do?you are leaving

2009-12-17T20:35:00.006+08:00

BY looking at the pictures,My holidays had been real real real GREAT and FUN!Being a crazy Fan girl and just moving on with life.Get what I mean?hah!this time round holiday is awesome!No kidding!
On the 12 December 2009 was the best!no matter how my legs hurts i just have to Enjoy!when Mario said "Lets Party!"and so everyone was like going crazy!Damn crazy and wild i can say!It was damn awesome!Since i miss gig so much,so what else.I just have to have FUN!Kiss me thru the phone and Umbrella performance was the BEST.It was DOPE!and obviously the AWESOME PERFORMANCE BY THE BBOYS WHICH IS THE JINJO CREW!they were awesome!seriously and they were superbly HOT!*coughs* ouh and yar obviously F.T Island and B.E.G!everyone was awesome lar!NO matter how much they sweat they still look HOT!I just like want to run up to the stage to wipe Min Hwan oppa's sweat!he was like sweating like hell lar!BUT we sweat more!cause we were having fun,we put our hands up,we were jumping,we were shouting and dancing!
and the 13 December was SUPER i tell you!omo!*hug syaz and kiss syaz*I Love you so much syaz.But i love oppa more syaz.see who is the brave one?obviously a human being to be named as DWI HERISA.A hug was good already!but who can't expect more right?Oppa's comment was obviously needed.It makes me smile everyday!I really didn't plan to do aegyo dance or what but it just happen when i was trying to walk small steps to Wing oppa(one of the Bboys).Thanks for saying that oppa! ^.^

I'm not ready for school yet.
I'll be in the Dance soon.I'm so gonna admit it.
Dance at last!

dream after dream

2009-12-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

FIRST OF ALL HAPPY TWO YEAR ANNI SAYANGSZSZ!!!!!my forever lover.you've been fooled!sayang=syazana sufri and nurul ain!These two year of spending my life with you guys had been wonderful.i know there were super a lot of ups and downs,good and bad to our journey of friendship.So later when i meet you guys,put on your best moment and we'll have FUN!I love you guys!

I am currently in fcuking no mood.yes because of you,idiot!You and whoever you and you and you are driving me NUTS!i hate you guys i hate!I thought you guys were the nice people.I thought you guys were the most considerate people.I thought you guys were the nicest people on earth.And i didn't thought you guys would play along.NO not play along.You guys didn't right?Its me who judge you guys so highly.In the first place i should take this sentence "don't judge a book by its cover" to consideration.And i hate especially you!

And how i wish if i could turn back time,i would not want to meet you guys.

I've become such a crybaby.I am not the person who like to cry and not easily to cry.But this year had gone worst than i imagine!and you know who make me cry the most?go figure!

gosh!

tomorrow babies!woots woots!i love love korang!

comment uh

2009-12-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

look AT KIBUM'S BODY!oMO MY BABY!HE IS UPER H.O.T!AND LOOK AT THE COMMENT!
And yeah DongHo look awesome tooo!and Kevin!and yar Everyone in U-kiss!now its like 7 members.they used to be 6.But yeah THEY ARE ALL H.O.T!!!!!!!!

And even tho its diff now

2009-11-27T03:13:00.005+08:00

HAHa!I know its 3.13am in the morning!So I'll shall do a greeting.GOOD MORNING!I'm still wide awake!cause I'm too tired to sleep.I didn't have much sleep cause i woke up around 8 when mum was trying to drag me or ika to market.As you know i really don't like to go to market.And for the first time this year the only time i went to market was with syaz and ayinn when we were buying stiffs for the BBQ.So back to story,i can't bear to open my eyes and so i slept again till 9 when no one wants to open the door for mum to come in.I heard the doorbell so i walk slowly eyes close.then mum was in a rush to go to work so i have to dry the carpets outside and peel out the prawn shell and wash the clothes.Since tmrw gonna be Hari Raya Haji,so mum bought 10kilos of prawn.imagine that!and i have to peel it one by one alone!It took me half a day to do it!seriously it stinks!

since there will no celebration tomorrow on mama's side and it will be held on Saturday instead,maybe we will be heading to simei.and like seriously this is like the first time we are celebrating hari raya haji with dad's side.Cause every hari raya haji,we will spending the whole day with mama's side.As you know i prefer dad's side rather than mum's.HEH!

But seriously i don't feel the heat of hari raya haji.I just don't know why.Ika even said that its only hari raya haji not hari raya as in hari raya.Buy yet i don't know what she was mumbling.nyehnyeh!But hoho I'll be going out tomorrow!yupeee!Slack Slack Slack time.Thats why i said MAYBE I'm going to simei.get that?heh!

Ok right now I'm damn sleepy!and ouh yar,my phone had been super quiet for TWO straight days!i wonder whats wrong with the last text i send to you-know-who.

I MISS PARK JAEBUM!!glad that 2pm won the awards!Hell yar i cried too when each and everyone of them make a speech for Jaebum.
instead of putting Jay I'll shall put J.heh short form.nvm.JAEBUM!!!!!!!!arghhhhh!!

I can't wait for 12 december!Its the concert!Omo!and guess what on that day I'll be leaving house at 5 not 5 pm but 5 am to queue so that we could stand infront of the stage.I know I'm like the crazy girl psycho fan.But hello everyone is doing that.If can I'll sleep at the entrance so that I'll be the first to enter!and yar mum and ika push me to do this cause they said "adik we need to dress up so you queue."wth i know.But i ain't going alone but with Raby i guess.I don't know how i am going to get dressed nicely!Obviously I'm going to meet Min Hwan of F.T Island who winked at me when we were at the airport sending them off back to Korea!gosh!He is so HOT!

okok I'm done.

wait i just feel like shouting this
"SYAZANA SUFRI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"SHERRYNAH SANI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
PLUCK?

I aint fierce

2009-11-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

Its like Hey-lo!whats good?hah!I know I've been away from this blog for a few days and syaz says my blog is dead.wth i know.Its just a few days!yup so I've been at home watching drama.ouh how good.Went to Granny and Grandpa's place on Sunday and its been a long time since i went over.And yar i went there alone.yes alone!Cause things at home weren't too good,i had to go alone and meet ika there since she slept over at aunt's place for three days so went there alone too.I went out without any foundation or what and the sun was hot and it was getting dark its almost to magrib and i couldn't get a cab.wth!and there is ayinn talking with me on the phone.I got a little emotional at that point of time cause of the things going on.Until the driver asked me if I'm okay or not.Btw thanks Ayinn for the company!

And i was freaking bored on Monday.I want to go out but I'm just lazy to get out of the bed.All i do is sleep,watch drama,eat and sleep again!And Its been 2 weeks since i last headed to the gym!omo omo omo!I think I'm putting on weight or not.Or I'm losing some weight?LOL i don't know.I had to give up some pants to ika since its getting bigger.hah!whatever it is this Thursday I'm so sure I'll be going to the gym.!And Monday wasn't that bored though.My phone keeps ringing and ringing and ringing!And that put a smile on my face.All the messages were all needed.Totally!I love it.

Woahh,babes 3rd December will be our party!woops woops woops!I can't wait!I'm so looking forward to it.We should have FUN FUN FUN AND MORE FUN!It will be like the girls night out.I'm so looking forward!And lets have more and more confession time.!!!!! :D
Talking about party,there will be a Christmas party!obviously it would be fun!superbly FUN since it like going to be like the hottest night.I'll shall see who is going.hah!Or else shopping would be good.since there will be a year end sale!woahhh!i like like.

I'm getting all sleepy.like seriously!Since hari raya haji is coming,i have to sleep over at uncle's place this Friday i guess to help Granny cook.Cause there will be a kenduri on Saturday.ouh that sucks.I'll be missing my drama so much!gosh!.

And the sad thing is that I OFFICIALLY LOST THE RING which i did engrave a name on it.It was a birthday gift!for myself and I'm so dissapointed at myself for being so careless!Gosh that ring means so much to me.There is only two person who knows whose name was engraved on that ring.Obviously its syaz and ayinn. :(

ok I'm done with this post and i shall upload some photos of the BBQ in the next post.
till then.

I'm on top of the world

2009-11-21T13:25:00.004+08:00

at last the fire!thanks to Raz's dad!^^^

Hey-lo!What's up homies?!ok shut up!hah!well well well.Guys,i just want to say thanks for yesterday.Thanks for coming and thanks for eating the food.Thanks for making this a successful one.I'm glad that u guys enjoy yourself.

Partly to my very lovers with the name of ayinn, syaz , jinhan.Lets forget all our crisis yesterday and the 'little problem' we had with the inconsiderate people.I bet u guys know who.And thanks so much!Thanks Thanks Thanks!

And to our Babygirl Syazana Sufri,Chill.Don't cry.You still have us if not..If There's fate,I'm very sure some day you guys are going to meet and be together.Take a chill pill and wait.Someday he will realized that actually there's someone out there who is ready to love him so much that he will be blessed with the love plus happiness and obviously it will be you darling who waited with full of patience and hopes..Just like what You and Ayinn always said to me remember.But now you have to imply that to yourself.Now is your turn cause mines over.So babe,remember there will be Threads of destiny in every each soul.I Love you!And remember I'll be there for you and I'll lend you my shoulder for you to cry on.And I'll be there to make you laugh so much.Like we always did when i was down.Now is your turn.this is what besfriends are for right?I'll shall repeat,I'll be there for You!*huggs*

The BBQ was awesome.We actually did have problem in the making of fire.Failed for like a lot of times,right Jin Han?hah!And we kept having problem.from one to another,right Ayinn?Scram those people!Make to scramble egg uh i tell you.hah!But when the moon appear after the sun,i bet it was quite fun.especially when we were sitting around the table.The confession game!"chia chia liang tei!"i dunnoe how you spell it but yar!It was funny!and yar whatever jokes that were spilled were all funny and lame.hah!But i love it!This is the best!and also the "Don't Fool around here" that jin Han likes to imitate with that voice!LOL!

ouh and yar I'll shall upload the pictures at FB alright babes and dudes.

OMG!Its raining!and i think I'm going back to sleep.and I'll shall wake up at 6 later cause i am very sleepy and tired.
*sings*I just wanna know if you feel the same way as me*yawns*

Currently texting ayinn who is now at Geylang and complaining about the un-yummy Hor Fun that she ordered!hahah!and now she is complaining that he never reply her text.hahah!funny!ASASE!SEE those two babes(syaz and ayinn obviously) of mine are in love.But right now,i'm faling out of love. :( cheyy like real.hah!padahal padahal.

ok cut it before i go on and on.
till the next post!
:D

Thanks dude for the comfort yesterday.I really appreciate it.And also thanks for accompanying me through last night.The msges were all needed.And i swear You are better than that friend of yours.I swear.and btw I woke up today with a smile on my face.wohhoo!thanks to you dude!

Its just so Addictive

2009-11-16T18:54:00.005+08:00

no longer but still it bothers me

Its freaking cold right now right here.I'm shivering.Its so windy and the sky is getting dark.I think it will be pouring rains soon.I'm all alone at home since just now around 1.I'm damn bored.But laughing is with me all the time to laugh.saw some random pictures and hear some stories and saw some 'incredible' story.OMG things are really unpredictable huh.At such,its really a laughing matter.

I miss bestfriend a lot.I've not seen her since last week.LOL.we only talk on the phone and chat.Gosh i miss our hang out session at my crib.eh,tmrw gym uh beb.I really need to workout.I'm putting on weight!Oh No!Syaz,tonight call.LOL.we kecoh-kecoh on the phone and talk about U-kiss,Shinee,2Pm and so on!lets go!

On the other hand,I'm counting down to 20th November.I am so looking forward to it.Hope everyone could come.

And so i was thinking of taking the dance class at the Korean school since someone wants to pay for me the fees.I have nothing to worry about.But the only thing is that I'm not sure if i could attend all lesson.heh!

Holiday had been real good cause finally I've finish watching The Weddings!like finally!so lets proceed to another drama that i haven't watch.LOL!Its fun you know to watch all those drama.Its a way of releasing my stress and my emotions and cry through/with the drama.You know some drama has the same way of life(love) I'm going through you see.so there i go with the tears pouring.But its fun.Some dramas has a mixture of comedian.So i could laugh with it.so its good.And yeah obviously swollen eyes will also appear lar.Maybe I'm going to watch Coffee Prince again.Its just so addictive.

Thanks to that person for listening to all my complains and my emotions.I really need your comfort,seriously.
And I'm trying to treat you as a friend and not more.Its hard for me cause you make me depend on you so much.So much That i need you each time i feel down and share with you everything.ok cut it.No i can't you know the reason why dude.

I'm really sleepy right now.I need some sleep.ok I've sleep too much.I'm tired.
ok done. :D

I'll laugh all i can

2009-11-14T02:07:00.004+08:00

What the hell I'm doing?!Look at the time now.Its 2.08am and I'm right here laughing and shouting like mad.I have yet to finish up The Korean drama and i'm only like at disc 4 still have long way to go to disc 5.So I'll shall accompany mama baking her cookies and cakes for kak lin while i watch The Weddings.and If I'm done with that I am going to watch Threads Of Destiny again or Sky Of love again.so yar I'm addicted!]

I was Browsing through someone photo album at FB and i was like laughing and laughing at this particular picture.It was Damn funny like hell!I bet if you are going to see it you are going to burst into laughter.Seriously Its freaking funny.OMG so obscene!Seriously I could not stop laughing even though I've log out from FB its just so funny.(Ayinn,I've got to show you that.i bet its even more funnier then the picture of backup kau(you know who).This is freaking funny!)Now i know why laughter is always accompanying me.Because laughter is always there.I could laugh to your even stupidest and lamest jokes even though if its not funny i could laugh.And your joke will become The Joke.So that means Your joke is funny.Laughter has always be with me through sad time.I love you Laughter!

And here it goes .
Its U-kiss!Their Comeback was so awesome!Ki Bum!Ki BUm! and there is a new member in their group and he is quite cute too no i mean hot.
Hold on Ki bum is my First Boyfriend.

ITS TAEYANG.MR FREAKING HOT WITH HIS NEW SONG WEDDING DRESS.
he just look so hot.SO SO HOT.with his hot body and small eyes(i like guys with small eyes).
HOT HOT HOT.
wait He's my Second Boyfriend.

Wedding dress MV is so meaningful seriously i could feel the heartache.How much it hurts.I'll be like Taeyang in this MV soon.I have to be brave and not to drop anymore tears.And to be so sure,the day is coming.

Happy Birthday Sherrynaah

2009-11-13T12:18:00.007+08:00

Our awkward day right this one^^^

So now what?Stuck at home doing nothing?WTF I'm bored to the Maxx.I need to get my butt off this chair and go somewhere.I have plans for tomorrow and that's fine.Syaz just called and asking me accompany her to hunt for some stuffs.Okay cool.But that will in the late afternoon.Gosh!i hate it much.I need some cash seriously.I've run out of money.Ika took all the money inside my wallet and i have nothing left.

I'm still sleepy.My eyes bags are like shit.Thanks to syaz for calling me when i was about to shut my eyes.And so i woke up and talk with her.Yes she was about to online to chat with i know who so i didn't want to interrupt their conversation and just hung up.Since i couldn't get back to sleep,i watch tv and plug in earpiece into my ears and listen to You and I-Bom on a repeat mode.I was actually waiting for my phone to ring again but it just didn't.

I'm hungry.No food at home.Mom is working.No fun stories.ouh how sad.BUT Hoho!and today is someone sweet 16 Birthday!

(sorry eh gambar amek dri FB)

Happy 16th Birthday Sherrynaah Sani!Omg.Do you know how much i love you sherry?WoW Its been a year right we knew each other.She's more like a sister to me now.Omg this cute little shorty pretty gorgeous Lady.Thanks for always being there for me listening to all the craps i have.We shall celebrate Your Birthday if not today,just tell us when you are free and we shall make ourselves free on the day you are free!ok sheery?And again HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SHERRYNAAH!(sherry did i text you on time?i think i am 2-4 minutes late right?sorry!)

whatever -_-

2009-11-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm asking myself what day is today.oMG i totally forget that today is Wednesday!OMG Singapore Idol!Asked Ika to change channel but she wouldn't coz she's watching The story of Ruby but now she is changing!heh!
So now I'm asking Myself how was my day today?
Guess what IT SUCKS.It sucks so much excluding the part where Syaz and Ayin came over to my crib onwards.Yes It was school.OMG.I'm pissed.If i have one wish right now and if i have the magic power to destroy,I will get rid of those woman.Especially the one who pulled my shirt.And the one who said I didn't attend the classes.Omg what a ridiculous statement!And its not even a FACT!
enough said.
Mama nagging.Everyone waiting for me to get to the dining table!so yarr!i'll continue till the next post.

I'm starting to get jealous

2009-11-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

The summary photos of our day at sentosa!

*sore throat*Hey LO!
heh!I'm feeling so weird.Damn weird.at the same time funny.really funny.Its like Hey lo.Few hours of talking on the phone.Few minutes of chatting on the phone.and I've finally talked and learn how to speak out.Few seconds of shouting was freaking fun,kn syaz?heh!

you know i got butterflies in my stomach.

This week had really been amazing and I'm just so On top of the world!get IT?ON TOP OF THE WORLD.It means then i am 10 times happy.how happy i cant describe.I'm just so happy.I'm FEELING TOTALLY RIGHT.dun understand?it means I'm feeling so happy that I'm feeling so bright.if u dun understand you try go figure.heh!

I'm busy.Busy planning for the BBQ.OMg i'm so tk sabar!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIRAH SYAKIRA!omg AT LAST YOU ARE 14!yOU KNOW I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.FOREVER U WILL BE THE BIG BULLY.THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ALL I HAVE TO SAY AND LAMEST JOKE THAT I CRAP A LOT.AND TO OUR 9 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.THANKS SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME LAUGH EACH TIME!I LOVE YOU!

*sings kau buat aku - sleeq*
I like this part of the song cause its so true*sings*Hari-hari kau selalu buat aku begitu bererti.

SYAZANA KAU KURANG AJAR!SHE'S NOW SAYING THAT U-KISS IS HOT AFTER THEIP COMEBACK.AND SHE SAY KI BUM IS HOT.OMO OMO OMO!KI BUM AKU NYER AKU DAN AKU.TETAP AKU SETIA DGN DIER ok!BUKAN MCM KAU!CHEYY TK DE LAR KIDDIN.

For YOu LIM JIN HAN

2009-11-06T00:24:00.003+08:00

As i Promise this one person to put his picture at my this one special post.this person Love to self praised.He loves saying that he is the only Handsome and Hot among the rest.He dyed his hair but sadly his hair went black back after thinking deep about his future.at least he knows what to do and not.No i dun think so.heh!sorry.Among all,he is the funniest but yet the most irritating.But i still love him though.He's not my lover neither my crush BUT HE IS MY MOST HOT BROTHER(i can say).He's been the one listening to all my complains and my love life.And he's been the one who had been advising me and the one who comfort me through the saddest day and when i had a hard time to forget.Forget about who?i give u the chance to go figure.Even though a day missing someone,MR LIM JIN HAN(full name somemore) will be there to make me laugh and will never fail to make me laugh with his stupidest lame jokes.And he would be the first to PM whenever i felt bored(actually no.)awww,I love you BROTHER!see bro very touching right i know.heh!so so so must thank me so much because i put all good things about you.heh!see you in 5-6 hours time uh.heh!

F.Y.I to Nurul Ain,you want to know who is my manager kn?

she is NURLEANA AMIRA BINTE ISMAIL.
hehheehh!yes!out of curiosity kau akhirnye tau jugak.sorry to keep you waiting for the answer!