DwiEsha !

dream after dream

2009-12-03T00:00:00.003+08:00

FIRST OF ALL HAPPY TWO YEAR ANNI SAYANGSZSZ!!!!!my forever lover.you've been fooled!sayang=syazana sufri and nurul ain!These two year of spending my life with you guys had been wonderful.i know there were super a lot of ups and downs,good and bad to our journey of friendship.So later when i meet you guys,put on your best moment and we'll have FUN!I love you guys!

I am currently in fcuking no mood.yes because of you,idiot!You and whoever you and you and you are driving me NUTS!i hate you guys i hate!I thought you guys were the nice people.I thought you guys were the most considerate people.I thought you guys were the nicest people on earth.And i didn't thought you guys would play along.NO not play along.You guys didn't right?Its me who judge you guys so highly.In the first place i should take this sentence "don't judge a book by its cover" to consideration.And i hate especially you!

And how i wish if i could turn back time,i would not want to meet you guys.

I've become such a crybaby.I am not the person who like to cry and not easily to cry.But this year had gone worst than i imagine!and you know who make me cry the most?go figure!

gosh!

tomorrow babies!woots woots!i love love korang!

comment uh

2009-12-01T22:15:00.003+08:00

look AT KIBUM'S BODY!oMO MY BABY!HE IS UPER H.O.T!AND LOOK AT THE COMMENT!
And yeah DongHo look awesome tooo!and Kevin!and yar Everyone in U-kiss!now its like 7 members.they used to be 6.But yeah THEY ARE ALL H.O.T!!!!!!!!

And even tho its diff now

2009-11-27T03:13:00.005+08:00

HAHa!I know its 3.13am in the morning!So I'll shall do a greeting.GOOD MORNING!I'm still wide awake!cause I'm too tired to sleep.I didn't have much sleep cause i woke up around 8 when mum was trying to drag me or ika to market.As you know i really don't like to go to market.And for the first time this year the only time i went to market was with syaz and ayinn when we were buying stiffs for the BBQ.So back to story,i can't bear to open my eyes and so i slept again till 9 when no one wants to open the door for mum to come in.I heard the doorbell so i walk slowly eyes close.then mum was in a rush to go to work so i have to dry the carpets outside and peel out the prawn shell and wash the clothes.Since tmrw gonna be Hari Raya Haji,so mum bought 10kilos of prawn.imagine that!and i have to peel it one by one alone!It took me half a day to do it!seriously it stinks!

since there will no celebration tomorrow on mama's side and it will be held on Saturday instead,maybe we will be heading to simei.and like seriously this is like the first time we are celebrating hari raya haji with dad's side.Cause every hari raya haji,we will spending the whole day with mama's side.As you know i prefer dad's side rather than mum's.HEH!

But seriously i don't feel the heat of hari raya haji.I just don't know why.Ika even said that its only hari raya haji not hari raya as in hari raya.Buy yet i don't know what she was mumbling.nyehnyeh!But hoho I'll be going out tomorrow!yupeee!Slack Slack Slack time.Thats why i said MAYBE I'm going to simei.get that?heh!

Ok right now I'm damn sleepy!and ouh yar,my phone had been super quiet for TWO straight days!i wonder whats wrong with the last text i send to you-know-who.

I MISS PARK JAEBUM!!glad that 2pm won the awards!Hell yar i cried too when each and everyone of them make a speech for Jaebum.
instead of putting Jay I'll shall put J.heh short form.nvm.JAEBUM!!!!!!!!arghhhhh!!

I can't wait for 12 december!Its the concert!Omo!and guess what on that day I'll be leaving house at 5 not 5 pm but 5 am to queue so that we could stand infront of the stage.I know I'm like the crazy girl psycho fan.But hello everyone is doing that.If can I'll sleep at the entrance so that I'll be the first to enter!and yar mum and ika push me to do this cause they said "adik we need to dress up so you queue."wth i know.But i ain't going alone but with Raby i guess.I don't know how i am going to get dressed nicely!Obviously I'm going to meet Min Hwan of F.T Island who winked at me when we were at the airport sending them off back to Korea!gosh!He is so HOT!

okok I'm done.

wait i just feel like shouting this
"SYAZANA SUFRI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
"SHERRYNAH SANI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i MISS YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
PLUCK?

I aint fierce

2009-11-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

Its like Hey-lo!whats good?hah!I know I've been away from this blog for a few days and syaz says my blog is dead.wth i know.Its just a few days!yup so I've been at home watching drama.ouh how good.Went to Granny and Grandpa's place on Sunday and its been a long time since i went over.And yar i went there alone.yes alone!Cause things at home weren't too good,i had to go alone and meet ika there since she slept over at aunt's place for three days so went there alone too.I went out without any foundation or what and the sun was hot and it was getting dark its almost to magrib and i couldn't get a cab.wth!and there is ayinn talking with me on the phone.I got a little emotional at that point of time cause of the things going on.Until the driver asked me if I'm okay or not.Btw thanks Ayinn for the company!

And i was freaking bored on Monday.I want to go out but I'm just lazy to get out of the bed.All i do is sleep,watch drama,eat and sleep again!And Its been 2 weeks since i last headed to the gym!omo omo omo!I think I'm putting on weight or not.Or I'm losing some weight?LOL i don't know.I had to give up some pants to ika since its getting bigger.hah!whatever it is this Thursday I'm so sure I'll be going to the gym.!And Monday wasn't that bored though.My phone keeps ringing and ringing and ringing!And that put a smile on my face.All the messages were all needed.Totally!I love it.

Woahh,babes 3rd December will be our party!woops woops woops!I can't wait!I'm so looking forward to it.We should have FUN FUN FUN AND MORE FUN!It will be like the girls night out.I'm so looking forward!And lets have more and more confession time.!!!!! :D
Talking about party,there will be a Christmas party!obviously it would be fun!superbly FUN since it like going to be like the hottest night.I'll shall see who is going.hah!Or else shopping would be good.since there will be a year end sale!woahhh!i like like.

I'm getting all sleepy.like seriously!Since hari raya haji is coming,i have to sleep over at uncle's place this Friday i guess to help Granny cook.Cause there will be a kenduri on Saturday.ouh that sucks.I'll be missing my drama so much!gosh!.

And the sad thing is that I OFFICIALLY LOST THE RING which i did engrave a name on it.It was a birthday gift!for myself and I'm so dissapointed at myself for being so careless!Gosh that ring means so much to me.There is only two person who knows whose name was engraved on that ring.Obviously its syaz and ayinn. :(

ok I'm done with this post and i shall upload some photos of the BBQ in the next post.
till then.

I'm on top of the world

2009-11-21T13:25:00.004+08:00

at last the fire!thanks to Raz's dad!^^^

Hey-lo!What's up homies?!ok shut up!hah!well well well.Guys,i just want to say thanks for yesterday.Thanks for coming and thanks for eating the food.Thanks for making this a successful one.I'm glad that u guys enjoy yourself.

Partly to my very lovers with the name of ayinn, syaz , jinhan.Lets forget all our crisis yesterday and the 'little problem' we had with the inconsiderate people.I bet u guys know who.And thanks so much!Thanks Thanks Thanks!

And to our Babygirl Syazana Sufri,Chill.Don't cry.You still have us if not..If There's fate,I'm very sure some day you guys are going to meet and be together.Take a chill pill and wait.Someday he will realized that actually there's someone out there who is ready to love him so much that he will be blessed with the love plus happiness and obviously it will be you darling who waited with full of patience and hopes..Just like what You and Ayinn always said to me remember.But now you have to imply that to yourself.Now is your turn cause mines over.So babe,remember there will be Threads of destiny in every each soul.I Love you!And remember I'll be there for you and I'll lend you my shoulder for you to cry on.And I'll be there to make you laugh so much.Like we always did when i was down.Now is your turn.this is what besfriends are for right?I'll shall repeat,I'll be there for You!*huggs*

The BBQ was awesome.We actually did have problem in the making of fire.Failed for like a lot of times,right Jin Han?hah!And we kept having problem.from one to another,right Ayinn?Scram those people!Make to scramble egg uh i tell you.hah!But when the moon appear after the sun,i bet it was quite fun.especially when we were sitting around the table.The confession game!"chia chia liang tei!"i dunnoe how you spell it but yar!It was funny!and yar whatever jokes that were spilled were all funny and lame.hah!But i love it!This is the best!and also the "Don't Fool around here" that jin Han likes to imitate with that voice!LOL!

ouh and yar I'll shall upload the pictures at FB alright babes and dudes.

OMG!Its raining!and i think I'm going back to sleep.and I'll shall wake up at 6 later cause i am very sleepy and tired.
*sings*I just wanna know if you feel the same way as me*yawns*

Currently texting ayinn who is now at Geylang and complaining about the un-yummy Hor Fun that she ordered!hahah!and now she is complaining that he never reply her text.hahah!funny!ASASE!SEE those two babes(syaz and ayinn obviously) of mine are in love.But right now,i'm faling out of love. :( cheyy like real.hah!padahal padahal.

ok cut it before i go on and on.
till the next post!
:D

Thanks dude for the comfort yesterday.I really appreciate it.And also thanks for accompanying me through last night.The msges were all needed.And i swear You are better than that friend of yours.I swear.and btw I woke up today with a smile on my face.wohhoo!thanks to you dude!

Its just so Addictive

2009-11-16T18:54:00.005+08:00

no longer but still it bothers me

Its freaking cold right now right here.I'm shivering.Its so windy and the sky is getting dark.I think it will be pouring rains soon.I'm all alone at home since just now around 1.I'm damn bored.But laughing is with me all the time to laugh.saw some random pictures and hear some stories and saw some 'incredible' story.OMG things are really unpredictable huh.At such,its really a laughing matter.

I miss bestfriend a lot.I've not seen her since last week.LOL.we only talk on the phone and chat.Gosh i miss our hang out session at my crib.eh,tmrw gym uh beb.I really need to workout.I'm putting on weight!Oh No!Syaz,tonight call.LOL.we kecoh-kecoh on the phone and talk about U-kiss,Shinee,2Pm and so on!lets go!

On the other hand,I'm counting down to 20th November.I am so looking forward to it.Hope everyone could come.

And so i was thinking of taking the dance class at the Korean school since someone wants to pay for me the fees.I have nothing to worry about.But the only thing is that I'm not sure if i could attend all lesson.heh!

Holiday had been real good cause finally I've finish watching The Weddings!like finally!so lets proceed to another drama that i haven't watch.LOL!Its fun you know to watch all those drama.Its a way of releasing my stress and my emotions and cry through/with the drama.You know some drama has the same way of life(love) I'm going through you see.so there i go with the tears pouring.But its fun.Some dramas has a mixture of comedian.So i could laugh with it.so its good.And yeah obviously swollen eyes will also appear lar.Maybe I'm going to watch Coffee Prince again.Its just so addictive.

Thanks to that person for listening to all my complains and my emotions.I really need your comfort,seriously.
And I'm trying to treat you as a friend and not more.Its hard for me cause you make me depend on you so much.So much That i need you each time i feel down and share with you everything.ok cut it.No i can't you know the reason why dude.

I'm really sleepy right now.I need some sleep.ok I've sleep too much.I'm tired.
ok done. :D

I'll laugh all i can

2009-11-14T02:07:00.004+08:00

What the hell I'm doing?!Look at the time now.Its 2.08am and I'm right here laughing and shouting like mad.I have yet to finish up The Korean drama and i'm only like at disc 4 still have long way to go to disc 5.So I'll shall accompany mama baking her cookies and cakes for kak lin while i watch The Weddings.and If I'm done with that I am going to watch Threads Of Destiny again or Sky Of love again.so yar I'm addicted!]

I was Browsing through someone photo album at FB and i was like laughing and laughing at this particular picture.It was Damn funny like hell!I bet if you are going to see it you are going to burst into laughter.Seriously Its freaking funny.OMG so obscene!Seriously I could not stop laughing even though I've log out from FB its just so funny.(Ayinn,I've got to show you that.i bet its even more funnier then the picture of backup kau(you know who).This is freaking funny!)Now i know why laughter is always accompanying me.Because laughter is always there.I could laugh to your even stupidest and lamest jokes even though if its not funny i could laugh.And your joke will become The Joke.So that means Your joke is funny.Laughter has always be with me through sad time.I love you Laughter!

And here it goes .
Its U-kiss!Their Comeback was so awesome!Ki Bum!Ki BUm! and there is a new member in their group and he is quite cute too no i mean hot.
Hold on Ki bum is my First Boyfriend.

ITS TAEYANG.MR FREAKING HOT WITH HIS NEW SONG WEDDING DRESS.
he just look so hot.SO SO HOT.with his hot body and small eyes(i like guys with small eyes).
HOT HOT HOT.
wait He's my Second Boyfriend.

Wedding dress MV is so meaningful seriously i could feel the heartache.How much it hurts.I'll be like Taeyang in this MV soon.I have to be brave and not to drop anymore tears.And to be so sure,the day is coming.

Happy Birthday Sherrynaah

2009-11-13T12:18:00.007+08:00

Our awkward day right this one^^^

So now what?Stuck at home doing nothing?WTF I'm bored to the Maxx.I need to get my butt off this chair and go somewhere.I have plans for tomorrow and that's fine.Syaz just called and asking me accompany her to hunt for some stuffs.Okay cool.But that will in the late afternoon.Gosh!i hate it much.I need some cash seriously.I've run out of money.Ika took all the money inside my wallet and i have nothing left.

I'm still sleepy.My eyes bags are like shit.Thanks to syaz for calling me when i was about to shut my eyes.And so i woke up and talk with her.Yes she was about to online to chat with i know who so i didn't want to interrupt their conversation and just hung up.Since i couldn't get back to sleep,i watch tv and plug in earpiece into my ears and listen to You and I-Bom on a repeat mode.I was actually waiting for my phone to ring again but it just didn't.

I'm hungry.No food at home.Mom is working.No fun stories.ouh how sad.BUT Hoho!and today is someone sweet 16 Birthday!

(sorry eh gambar amek dri FB)

Happy 16th Birthday Sherrynaah Sani!Omg.Do you know how much i love you sherry?WoW Its been a year right we knew each other.She's more like a sister to me now.Omg this cute little shorty pretty gorgeous Lady.Thanks for always being there for me listening to all the craps i have.We shall celebrate Your Birthday if not today,just tell us when you are free and we shall make ourselves free on the day you are free!ok sheery?And again HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SHERRYNAAH!(sherry did i text you on time?i think i am 2-4 minutes late right?sorry!)

whatever -_-

2009-11-11T20:24:00.000+08:00

I'm asking myself what day is today.oMG i totally forget that today is Wednesday!OMG Singapore Idol!Asked Ika to change channel but she wouldn't coz she's watching The story of Ruby but now she is changing!heh!
So now I'm asking Myself how was my day today?
Guess what IT SUCKS.It sucks so much excluding the part where Syaz and Ayin came over to my crib onwards.Yes It was school.OMG.I'm pissed.If i have one wish right now and if i have the magic power to destroy,I will get rid of those woman.Especially the one who pulled my shirt.And the one who said I didn't attend the classes.Omg what a ridiculous statement!And its not even a FACT!
enough said.
Mama nagging.Everyone waiting for me to get to the dining table!so yarr!i'll continue till the next post.

I'm starting to get jealous

2009-11-07T22:56:00.004+08:00

The summary photos of our day at sentosa!

*sore throat*Hey LO!
heh!I'm feeling so weird.Damn weird.at the same time funny.really funny.Its like Hey lo.Few hours of talking on the phone.Few minutes of chatting on the phone.and I've finally talked and learn how to speak out.Few seconds of shouting was freaking fun,kn syaz?heh!

you know i got butterflies in my stomach.

This week had really been amazing and I'm just so On top of the world!get IT?ON TOP OF THE WORLD.It means then i am 10 times happy.how happy i cant describe.I'm just so happy.I'm FEELING TOTALLY RIGHT.dun understand?it means I'm feeling so happy that I'm feeling so bright.if u dun understand you try go figure.heh!

I'm busy.Busy planning for the BBQ.OMg i'm so tk sabar!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMIRAH SYAKIRA!omg AT LAST YOU ARE 14!yOU KNOW I ALWAYS LOVE YOU.FOREVER U WILL BE THE BIG BULLY.THANKS FOR LISTENING TO ALL I HAVE TO SAY AND LAMEST JOKE THAT I CRAP A LOT.AND TO OUR 9 YEARS OF FRIENDSHIP.THANKS SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING ME LAUGH EACH TIME!I LOVE YOU!

*sings kau buat aku - sleeq*
I like this part of the song cause its so true*sings*Hari-hari kau selalu buat aku begitu bererti.

SYAZANA KAU KURANG AJAR!SHE'S NOW SAYING THAT U-KISS IS HOT AFTER THEIP COMEBACK.AND SHE SAY KI BUM IS HOT.OMO OMO OMO!KI BUM AKU NYER AKU DAN AKU.TETAP AKU SETIA DGN DIER ok!BUKAN MCM KAU!CHEYY TK DE LAR KIDDIN.

For YOu LIM JIN HAN

2009-11-06T00:24:00.003+08:00

As i Promise this one person to put his picture at my this one special post.this person Love to self praised.He loves saying that he is the only Handsome and Hot among the rest.He dyed his hair but sadly his hair went black back after thinking deep about his future.at least he knows what to do and not.No i dun think so.heh!sorry.Among all,he is the funniest but yet the most irritating.But i still love him though.He's not my lover neither my crush BUT HE IS MY MOST HOT BROTHER(i can say).He's been the one listening to all my complains and my love life.And he's been the one who had been advising me and the one who comfort me through the saddest day and when i had a hard time to forget.Forget about who?i give u the chance to go figure.Even though a day missing someone,MR LIM JIN HAN(full name somemore) will be there to make me laugh and will never fail to make me laugh with his stupidest lame jokes.And he would be the first to PM whenever i felt bored(actually no.)awww,I love you BROTHER!see bro very touching right i know.heh!so so so must thank me so much because i put all good things about you.heh!see you in 5-6 hours time uh.heh!

F.Y.I to Nurul Ain,you want to know who is my manager kn?

she is NURLEANA AMIRA BINTE ISMAIL.
hehheehh!yes!out of curiosity kau akhirnye tau jugak.sorry to keep you waiting for the answer!

There's no love without tears

2009-11-03T14:05:00.002+08:00

Muke sesungguh tk perlu!

My body is aching!
My leg is in pain.
My eyes are about to close.
My Fingers are lazy.
My mouth needs ice lemon tea.
My nose needs tissue.
My ears needs earpiece.
My heart needs you.

ok actually and basically I'm just sick and tired so I'm blabbering nonsense and yar dun care about the freaking My heart needs you.It doesn't matter anymore.It sucks just sucks freaking much.I hate this feeling.I just hate.I freaking don't want to ask why I'm Feeling This freaking stupid feeling.It gets me freaking obsessed!I hate it!I hate you!erghhhh!ASS betol!

I shouldn't have waited.Ouh i'm tired.
Woke up late and reach class 30 minutes later.ouh how good.i couldn't get my ass off the bed.my legs are really pain after a day of walking on the sand.heh!kidding.yesterday was a really tiring day.seriously.went back from school no rest quickly change meet syaz.wait for her for like 10 minute at the bustop.It was freaking HOT the weather i mean.Then off to meet sherrynaah.Then off to head the beach!I'm like the photographer of the day!biase lar!cheyyy!then Arinah and Leana join us.But we went off ard 6.30 leaving leana and arinah and off we went to vivo to eat our breakfast comes lunch comes dinner.heh!Then home sweet home.went back around 10.since syaz wanted to slack first at lakeside.and we missed two buses!fuhyoooo!baek uh!

I feel like deleting all those useless msges and tk perlu msges.But i just can't press delete.get that?heh!further more who cares lar kan?I've been msging ... alamak who uh?cheyyy hahah!no larr.ehem!ehem!(you know i know) and yar It makes me forget HIM.ouh I bet that's a good thing and a good idea.*claps*Some Hypocrites are just nuisance.

just like you!

heh!yar and obviously i need my sleep right now.will post the pictures SOON!
DONE!

Threads of Destiny

2009-10-30T21:46:00.004+08:00

woahh!
jsut came back from Meet the Parent session.I've got good remarks from Mrs Chong.on the way back home mama was like "adik is your teacher a christian?I can see the difference between mrs chong and the other teacher.I prefer Mrs Chong.I can see that she is very humble."heh!i know.ouh tell me who doesn't want Mrs Chong to be our form teacher?!and yeah I've got chance to enter a thru train class.i hope so.Rather than i waste my time to take N level more better if i skip and just take O.

Nvm lets just pass my retest.

here comes holiday.and finally 2B will have a BBQ gathering at last.Or else only the 10 of us go.Maybe because it is a BBQ.so yarr and I'm totally gonna miss those bunch of Crazy/Fighter/Bully/Noobs/Suckers/Gangster like and all sort of names you guys call yourselves.I'm so totally gonna miss you guys a lot!so we shall meet on the 20th November again yup.I love you guys.I hope that our reunion could be a successful one.
and especially to MR LIM JIN HAN,you shall study and not only girls girls girls and you know what lar horr.and YOU must pass the retest.ok?Make your Mummy smile.alright?We love you bro.

And here comes the saddest part.Here come holiday.which means there will be no going to toilet for fun(you know i know).There will be no hello here hello there(you know i know).and there will be no sexcited ness in another words excited.The excitement of of going to school.The excitement of jumping up and down out of joy.And my everyday smiling will fade away slowly.get what i mean?(you know i know)Somehow next week I'll come back to school and if luck is on me then I'll see what i want to see.

ok cut it.
I'm done here.
I'm lazy plus tired.

BOOM

2009-10-29T17:59:00.004+08:00

I will miss you bestfriend

I'm still in my school uniform right now.Its been a boring day for me.really really boring.wth i know.and today sucks like hell.
The teachers had already plan remedial for us who will be taking the re-test.and hhoho i need to sit for 3 papers during the holiday.and yar wtf!on the first week of holiday already have remedial.Now you tell me how my holiday is going to suck like hell.Cause I've plan everything for holiday.and it SUCKS Fcuking damn much that It will be canceled or postponed.Seriously I've been getting mad over it.seriously.
I know studies is important.I know it is.But yeah we need a break too.I can grow white hair if all i do at home is study.Then what are holidays mend for?!This makes me hate school more.ok cut it.erghhhhh!i hate it.

But I won't be seeing Bestfriend tmrw.she will be leaving for camp tmrw.and the funny part for today was that when she had to go off to her camp prep and she was like "dwi i will miss you come let me give you a kiss"and i was like ok.Instead,I kissed Bestfriend.heh!I love her.and saw when i turn around i dunnoe where Amirah went.and so Me and ayinn headed to 63 without syaz.we Bought chicken cutlet again.hish!I know It will make me gain more weight.What to do,i was feeling down.
ans so I miss you,you,you,you and you.heh!go figure.

Love like this

2009-10-27T18:32:00.005+08:00

Gosh i miss this cute little kid.

I'm all home alone again. :(
I think If i have to do this alone everyday,i rather be dead than have a boring holiday.seriously.mama and ayah will be out working.ika will be out everyday,studying.and i would be alone at home.all i can do is sleep eat watch TV sit in front of this screen.and sometimes there's simply nothing that can make my bored ness go away.Get it?

I changed my blogskin because i was bored.i dunnoe if this one is nice or not but i just found this.hah!Its better than nothing.but the only thing is that it is in purple!OMG.i was trying to search for a pink one but my butt was tired so i just took this and here it goes.

Currently now watching music Bank.

Ouh and yar my playlist here have 3 different types of song.first is Without you by Pixie Lott.the 2nd is Kau Buat aku by Sleeq.and the third one is Love like this by SS501.hahah!OMG this 3 song is currently my addiction.i don't know why.

Had Amazing race just now.and i was the station master together with Lum and Chin chye.and we were the last station which i think is the furthest!and we were the first to reach around 8(but the race started at 9.30.wth i know) and the sun was up but it started to down pour heavily.and Syaz's group was the first at my station.Since the 3 of us haven't had our breakfast,we asked chin chye to buy drink for us.I know its far to walk out from our spot since its at the Jurong lake park there now tell me if u can find a shop there.No right!we started to walk off around 12.05 since we have to reach school by 12.20.and the three of us were still taking a stroll.and yar i was the only girl and i am the shortest.while walking chin chye was talking nonsense and Lum was teasing me about that tree(white shirt).At last we reach school around 12.30 i guess.heh!and everyone was already at The Panel room.

I am freaking tired right now.Freaking tired!This week is the last week of school.and i am going to cry is i were to separate with SYAZANA.I need my best-friend.But right now she's busy preparing for her camp this Friday.so I'll shall not disturb her.I've become more tan.Gosh!Oh no no.and i have a pimple at my forehead!Gosh!I should chill It can go away.

alright alright i want to continue watching Music Bank.

DONE

2009-10-25T20:24:00.003+08:00

jeng jeng jeng!
heh!
today is damn boring!BORING!i repeat*imitate ayinn*BORING!hahahh!ok chill.ouh and yar syarif was at mr crib just now.gosh that dude.he is still the same even though he is going through NS right now.My eyes are heavy!i need to get some sleep BUT i have a phone date today night.see when it comes to holidays,I'm sure every night user busy.hah!when it comes to jokes,we will laugh non stop.A karaoke session through the phone will never have an ending.hahahha!and a teary night will have a happy ending in some way or another.SEE!Different emotions in just one night.

I'm having nightmare or rather dreams almost every night.i don't know whats wrong.and HE is always inside my dreams either good or bad one.But HE is always zipping his mouth and only smile at me.while doing some actions to speak up.hmmm...and my hearts goes melt like ice.I know each dreams have a meaning to it.Maybe i just miss Him thats why until ika had to wake me up at night because i am sleep talking and smiling away.heh!i know I'm crazy.

I know i am not suppose to blog about this but i just have too.If u read Berita Harian today,u will see this article about this young teenager who stop school because she needs to take care of her 6 siblings.F.y.i she is Azri's sister.After their mom passed away(i've blog about it before on the day his mum passed away)his sister had been the 'mother'.She is like the role model.to see the sacrifices she made.i wish i could have her kind heart.ouh.i feel so pity.i thought i would see Azri that time when ika went jln raye with him but he went back half cause he have tahlil for his mum.Gosh i miss him.I still admit that i still have feelings for him though.ok i shouldn't have said that.A girl would be so lucky to have him as a boyfriend.seriously.He's the ideal one.ok cut it.

ok i'll stick to one.hah!wait hold on i thought i am not suppose to post anything related to HIM?hah!i know i just did,the dream.hah!ok stop it.

ouh and yar,I've been going to the gym and eating some diet drink.eh hello it works!I'm still achieving what i want.and I've been cutting down my intake of food.mama says I put off a little weight.BUt still i need to get my butt up and workout everyday.heh!and i have a personal trainer and she is my bestfriend who else if not SYAZANA.she's helping me out here since she once went through a fat ass body before and she manage to become who she is today.amazing right?and we'll go sun tanning.In the gym,we talk about so many things and we could repeat it everyday with different opinions.we could shout any time because her gym is always empty or else her bro will come along with us.and of course we share about LOVE.hers and mine.you know what are bestfriends for right?we share almost everything!I Love you Bestfriend.But i miss another two beautiful babes who always bloom my Friday.who else if not Miss Arinah and Miss Sherrynaah.Girls,when are we going out again? :( I miss you Girls.

and yes i'll be going to Seoul'd Concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wohhooooo!

2009-10-22T20:31:00.003+08:00

hah! funny isn't it? i shall not post again like that just like the previous post.Its so...nahh i dun know how to explain this. this week had been rather boring.I thought it should be more fun since exams are over instead,Its freaking BORING and kinda waste off time.LOL!i shouldn't be saying this.i know. I've been keeping myself away from Them.But seriously i miss hanging out with Irwan and Farhan.I have reasons for my action yup?So bro,sorry.and I've not been talking to Hady after what happen that day.I know i shouldn't showed that stupid paper with full of stupid comments and nonsense.yar right. I MISS FAMILY.i miss those crazy bunch.i miss joking ard with them.Guys,i miss you and yar,just now as soon as i step on the bus,my phone played the song Exclusive.and i was like wtf!yar yar.HEH!i just couldn't stop laughing and i dun know whats so funny. currently talking otp with ayin right now. i will be giving a treat for both ayinn and syaz at pastamania.!yeahhh!guys,as i promise.THANKS SO MUCH!

2009-10-16T23:25:00.006+08:00

Fuhooo!currently watching 2 days 1 night right now.see seungi and mc mong!omo3!alamak hot bende uh drg!LOL!

what i have for this post is just freaking simple.its just a short one.i dunnoe why and what i'm doing this for But this is just a little something that i am feeling right now.LOVE.

firstly went out with syaz just now to buy stuffs for tmrw.so otw back,we talked about someone who i fancy in another words like in another words love?because syaz started to ask me question that I'm clueless to answer.she saw the teared in my eye.I was holding it aback.And she was like "dwi,go listen to exclusive again.i know its an old song but just read the lyrics.Its just like your life.Its exactly.saving the message,just look at your phone babe!everything,its just like you,"so i went back and check the song in my phone.and i was like wth!-_- This exclusive lyrics is like what i'm feeling right now.so yar.i dunnoe if i have to really say this but yar I MISS YOU and yar obviusly there's more of unsaid words but that's what important now.

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Life is such a crazy thing
It's never really what it seems
Cause first we were chillin
Now I got your feelins
Can you tell me what this means?
I'm going through my voicemail
And I'm saving
Every message you sent
I tried to read
Between the lines
To see if there
Was somethin' I missed

All of a sudden
My vision became so clear
Everything I needed was right here
Before me (before me)
So pressed to let you know
Just how you make me feel
Never had a feeling thats so real
Control me
(And i'm ready, boy I'm ready)

Don't wanna play no games
I want you exclusive
Baby, we should just do this
With the feeling's so strong
How can we go on?
No games, I want you exclusive
There's no more excuses
The feelings so right
I want you boy, I need you boy

I really love your company
Hate it when you gotta leave
Another oppurtunity
For me to say everything
So tell me if i'm buggin
When you look at me
Like that (like that)
I wanna say something
But I don't know how
Your gonna react

All of a sudden
My vision became so clear
Everything I needed was right here
Before me (before me)
So pressed to let you know
Just how you make me feel
Never had a feeling that's so real
Control me
(And i'm ready, boy I'm ready)

Don't wanna play no games
I want you exclusive
Baby, we should just do this
With the feeling's so strong (strong)
How can we go on?
No games, I want you exclusive
There's no more excuses (no more excuses)
The feelings so right
I want you boy, I need you boy

Ohh, you knew it all along
What was going wrong
Let me take my pain
Before its too late
I dont care how this may sound
But you need to know right now
So I might as well
Just come on out and tell ya

All of a sudden
My vision became so clear
Everything I needed was right here
Before me (before me)
So pressed to let you know
Just how you make me feel
Never had a feeling thats so real
Control me
(And i'm ready, boy I'm ready)

Don't wanna play no games
I want you exclusive, (exclusive)
Baby, we should just do this
(Baby let's do this)
With the feeling's so strong (so strong)
How can we go on? (Go on)
No games, I want you exclusive
There's no more excuses
(No more excuses) (ohh baby)
The feelings so right (So right)
I want you boy, I need you boy

Don't wanna play no games
I want you exclusive, (exclusive)
Baby, we should just do this
(Baby, let's do this)
With the feeling's so strong (so strong)
How can we go on? (how can we go on)
No games, I want you exclusive (ohh yea)
There's no more excuses
The feelings so right (ohhh)
I want you boy, I need you boy

2009-10-15T18:17:00.001+08:00

Its Taeyang's latest!
OMG HE IS FREAKING HOT!!!!!!
Taeyang my another scandal.hahah!
:DDDDD

2009-10-14T12:12:00.003+08:00

Just 2 more and I'm done with all those irritating exams!
I'm now scared for my maths result.tmrw is paper 2.yes paper 2.and just had maths remedial just now.and ms Ng said,
"this dwi uh.Gets distracted easily uh this few days.cannot concentrate.look there look here."
yes i know am not concentrating enough.yes I'm distracted.i mean very distracted.hah!i just don't know why.why oh why?haha!syaz why uh?ayinn why uh?amirah why uh?then Kah Meng went over to my place and said "what's wrong with you?" i said "nothing.(some words)why?" he said ,"*a hard knock on my head*You love sick uh you!"and he walk away laughing.wtf! I'm not love sick uh ok!funny.
then this kpo ayinn said "tgk!kahmeng pon ckp kau mabok cinte" OK ya ya whatever!hah!this is not love sick.I'm just sick.Nothing got to do with love.hah!I'm just distracted nothing to do with love 2.Whats happening to me have got nothing to do with love.Love is just not connected.and ayinn teach kah meng how to say love sick in Malay.wtf!

I'm sleepy very sleepy.history paper just now was damn!i hate history.like sriously.

I can't wait for this Friday and Saturday.i just can't wait!Shopping again!see when there is money,Its like you have to spend every single cent on shopping.There will be a maid at my house.coming either tomorrow or today.and i can't wait.i can shake leg after the maid come.woohoooo!yes yes!

alamak stomachache lar seyy!i think i need to go poop.no i dun think so.ok not pain already.yes next week no need go school!so what should i do for next week?hmmm.Movie marathon uh aper lagy!siang hingga ke malam!wohooo!

ouh ya had open house last Sunday and it was ok!At last i get to meet those beautiful babes after like for like 2 months never meet.but sadly no pictures were taken.because i forgot!and i also forgot to invite some people that mama ask to come.and ya ika did jalan raye with her friends but sadly,azri didn't came to my house as he got tahlil(i dunnoe if the spelling is correct) for his mum who passed away last week.SO I DIDN"T GET TO SEE HIS FACE!instead mimi showed me his picture.CUTE gile!!!!Omo3!and raby and atika ask ika to ask me for my picture so that azri could draw a portrait!OMG!so sweet of them both But kakak instead said "korang jangan nak spoil kan adik aku ehk!"wtf!

No actually i just need someone to draw me roses.just like those black rose where i see in those photogenic pictures.wahhh!i like i like!and i could put it up in my room beside my bed so that i can smile while sleeping.and dream of petals of red and black roses on the floor and i walk on it adding on to the candles i just bought!and in the middle of it a white rose among the red ones,a carebear shine will accompany it and i want the ice cream at PLUCK(gosh aku miss pluck siol)!and when i wake up mama will say "JANGAN MIMPI!"hahahahah!

and raby,atika,khoiri,yuni,harris is coming over to my crib.but i should sleep because i very sleepy.ok DONE!

2009-10-08T13:43:00.004+08:00

I'm bored!bored!damn damn bored!wtf wtf wtf!yes 4 papers down!just now was English and maths paper 1.god bless it was quite easy for maths but i screwed my English paper like seriously!I bet the whole class too.Instead of Informal,we did formal.wtf!me and leana perangai tk perlu!when Mdm W came in,walk around the whole class then said "class!letter writing it can be formal and informal!"me and leana look at each other and we was like "eh you do formal or informal?" and we like so called 'show' our paper to each other.funny sia!I seriously forget about the informal format since Mdm W and Miss L only revise with us the formal one.And totally i didn't study English since i thought maths is damn important as you know my maths ain't that good.and yesterday night around 9 i went out!hah!i know i should have just sit down at home and study.LOL!

Currently chatting with leana and we could not stop talking about how we screwed our English!later on maybe talking with Farhan on the phone since he got a little something to discuss about.Irwan could not join us.He's got girlfriend already now.so i understand.

Tomorrow D&T paper.Gosh!i hope it is easy. and after paper finish Lunch date with bestfriends(kara,farhan and irwan(celebrate belated birthdays)).gosh!i like!But it isn't a double date.It will never be a double date.I know i won't but maybe someone yes.ehem!ehem!LOL!They know who I'm head over heels in love with.hahah!nvm.

For now,YOU are still a secret.Its a secret between syaz,amirah,ayin,arinah,sherry,farhan and irwan and me,me,me and ME!see!how little people know my feelings!I'm being SECRETIVE about my feelings for you dude.Its hard!I'm not that kind of mad at you.at least yesterday got to talk to you about your phone although it was just for a few minutes.Let me just smile to myself.I miss you dude!

2009-10-03T22:30:00.004+08:00

I thought that things would be rather good but apparently it was the opposite. I've been waiting for you name to appear on my screen But it was just a miracle. i just shut it when i heard some things about you been praying hard that it would not happen but apparently maybe it did. I feel like sometimes somethings would be different.i once ask you "whats love to you?" and you said "its a feeling of great fondness feeling and interest towards that person ........." and you also said never to give up on someone you love cus mungkin nanti,things would be different. so I've been thinking and asking myself if later on will my wishes and love be fulfilled. i did told myself not to give up on you but laying out whats happening now it seems that i have too.but whats coming my way,i don't know. Its been a year,dude!a year!A year I've been waiting for you. I know,you told me about that girl you fancy.But you started to be emotional ass! I wanted to see you smile and that is why i wanted to help you out to have that relationship with her.But Bestfriend started to open up my mind.she said "dwi,are you sure?Dwi,its like you try to pleases people's heart But not yourself,what's this?!" Hmph!i hate this part right here! I text-ed you for the past few days but sadly not one of it you replied. what have i done wrong? Since that day you said you were a jerk and i said no but right now YOU ARE REALLY A JERK! enough said.

I'm not that looking forward for tomorrow.
speaking the truth,I've got NO MOOD!NO MOOD,get that?
But somehow,I'll try to laugh with them and smile with them through no matter what I'm feeling.Fcuk it!

Syaz and ayinn krg besok datang awal dari drg uh.at least we could "talk",you know?tmrw SONGKET ehk ehk ehk.sayang krg lar byk2!

Yesterday was the saddest day!like seriously.i cried twice.first was because of *blank* and the other was because Azri mum just passed away.i couldn't take it anymore.my head was too filled with problems.Mama called home and told me that when ika gets home call raby cause raby text mama's phone saying that there were a lot of people outside azri's house.But apparently i called Raby myself and we were both kecoh at the same time our voices were heard that we were both about to cry.after putting down the phone,i FINALLY CRIED!cute sia!called khoiri thought that ika was with him but she wasn't so i just told khoiri the whole thing.when ika came back i open the door crying and she was damn shocked.I was jumping up and down crying telling her about his mum.so i called syaz while nangis tersedu-sedu.Its too sad.I pray hard that Allah puts his mum in heaven.Amin.

2009-09-29T19:37:00.004+08:00

i'M USING MAMA'S SHADE.funny?

raya picture onwards^^^^the rest at Facebook.

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Weeehooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*imitate fillintheblank*hheh heh heh heh heh heh heh heh!
cute gile rabaks!
ok chill dwi.hah!this week had been Good!I just can't stop laughing with the 2 babes.our inside jokes are too MUCH to describe how funny it is!and i keep giggling at myself since yesterday.and i still can't stop smiling and laughing at my own self!i dunnoe why but its damn funny to think about the 'actions'.Like now,i'm smiling and smiling.i know i crazy."Heh heh heh!" i can't stop laughing when ayinn imitate how (i dun think i want put the name here)laughs.

This is too much happiness for me.
:DDDDD
see!I'm still laughing at it!

Damn it!My hands and fingers just can't let go of my phone!i dunno why but i am starting to feel that the phone is damn important to me right now.DAMN IMPORTANT!i bet i know why :))))

But somehow i think that there is a need to change my phone.seriously.i'll change with dad's touch screen phone if i can!

My eyes are getting tired.seriously!yes!TMRW SCHOOL FINISH AT 1.15!at last get to finish early!

school doesn't sucks nowadays.But it makes me want to go school everyday.hah!i have my own reason for this :)))))

ouh and yar
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YEW WENG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wahhh my beside partner already 14!hah!sorry i accidentally scratch you hands! :s But hoho i'm the first to wish you!woohooooo!yes!hahaaha!i know i texted you very early in the morning yesterday!hah!ok what shit i talking?haha!
God Bless.

2009-09-26T01:43:00.004+08:00

we suppose to find spots to take this 2 posters but since the F1 thingy is happening,
we couldn't walk to anywhere else other than Marina Square.

Wohooooo!
went out with MISS SHERRYNAAH after like Months i didn't see her.but sad,she was tired and yes you can see how tired she was.agak nyer nk uzzzzzzz uhhh.cheyyy!i miss her so much lar.i think that today that there is something wrong with syaz coz she like one stress person.In school also like that.wth!

Since today plan to go out with hyt and all was canceled,i had a little time to rest before going out and meet Sherrynaah and Syazana.Ayinn came to my crib after her test and teman me till JE.I couldn't find Sherry in the train. ouh and yar bumped into kahmeng at lakeside mrt.I can tell that he was mad at me coz he had not been talking to me for days!!!!!!ok dude,SORRY!you know what I'm sorry for,obviously.

I'm having running nose right now.and its irritating.Damn irritating i tell you full stop(.)

I need to change the song at my blog.like seriously.I'm damn lazy to update the links.i know i haven't link some of you guys.i know that sucks.

Life had been changing.I might be On top of the world but i can have raindrops.It makes me feel happy but it adds on to my stress x2 the happiness.Meaning?meaning that i feel happy but Its making me more frustrated rather than being sad.actually i don't know what i'm saying,obviously.i know its crap shit.guess why?
BECAUSE I AM FRUSTRATED RIGHT NOW.see!told ya,the more happy i am the More frustrated i will be.and this really sucks i tell you dude!

I kept thinking about the question ayinn asked me;
"Dwi,Do you Regret that you fall in love with him?"

hmmmmm....so do i regret it?its all a question mark for me.i have no idea.I do regret don't I?ouh gosh!it sucks!sucks!

2009-09-24T20:04:00.006+08:00

Ouh 22 september is MISS SYAZANA SUFRI'S 14TH BIRTHDAYYYYY!!!!!
YEAHHH!AT LAST KAU 14 JUGAK EHK.TPI TETAP AKU OLDEST!
syaz,thanks for being there for me whenever i needed you.
who says enemy can't be friends right?hahaha!we got enemy mehhh?
cheyy.aniways thanks for being patience with my Lames jokes,stupid action,
My noisy mouth and so on.i know u have gotten the biggest birthday gift from me.
but theres more ahead ehk remember that.MORE ahead.
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So fast time flies and its already the 5th day of Hari Raya.ouh how cool! so cool. My second day of raya was awesome!But its some kind of different?maybe because its lesser people going.TETAPI yang gerekk sure HAVE!.haahah!ok chill. I'm currently NOT in my bESt MOOD right now.I'M FRUSTRATED,MAD,ANGRY,SAD,HAPPY(A LITTLE BIT) AND DAMN PATHETICALLY BORED.but the best word to describe my Mood now is FRUSTRATED. School was damn!No need to describe more.It all tk perlu yesterday was fun fun fun fun fun fun!I dun lie but yesterday was DAMN fun.I bet syaz also.maybe another lunch date ehk.Syaz sure kau happy. and the yesterday yesterday was hahahahhahahah!awesome!talked with Irwan in the evening for 45 minutes and 31 seconds.that super horny dude.he can't stop with his Horny thingy.later in the night around 10,conference call with farhan,irwan again and syaz for 1 hour plus i think..we best friends are cool!Farhan and me Planned to just shut up and let irwan and syaz talk.but when we keep quiet they also keep quiet.awkward.ouh sungguh tk menjadi!we failed!cool!i like like.wth! But thanks Farhan for listening to all my stories.The Unrequited and forbidden Love I'm going through right now.and Farhan is also like having Problem with his love life.so we like exchange stories like that..haizz *sigh*how heart breaking. :'(

MY UNREQUITED AND FORBIDDEN LOVE.
cheyy cheyy like real!wtf!

My phone had not been ringing for days. :( cheyy no lar.ayinn still do msg and call me.syaz still do msg and call me.arienah still do msg me.sherrynaah still do msg me.farhan still do msg and call me.irwan still do msg and call me.afiq still do msg me.ok wtf!random!

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ouh and and and btw, today is IRFAN ILOHSHIX BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAHHH!!!18 alreadyyyyy!wah wah wahh!cheyyy cheyy cheyy!yeahhhhh!

BTW BTW BTW,I MISS GIGS. :((((((((